Waiting for the Big O

I finished my 3^rd cycle of Clomid yesterday. I am so thankful to be done with those pills. I honestly felt like a crazy woman. Mr. Determined Bud left on Friday for a friend’s bachelor party weekend and partly because of all the extra hormones I bawled that he was leaving me. All Friday and Saturday I was in a huge funk because he wasn’t here. I am going to blame the hormones because I was truly excited for the guys and their weekend of fun. Last night after my final pills I went out for Mr. DB’s friend’s wife’s bachelorette party. We went out to a few local clubs and I was lost in a world I didn’t fit in. Don’t get me wrong I had fun celebrating her last week of being single but it made me realize how much I have changed in just a little under 3 years. I am so thankful for all the changes I have been through. I am so thankful to not have to be in the world of hook ups and dating. I am truly content lying in bed with Mr. DB dreaming and planning our family and future!

As for me, I am in the waiting to see if I ovulate. I get to start peeing on the sticks in 3 days. I always feel like I am peeing on some kind of stick either hoping I am ovulating or hoping I am pregnant. Hopefully this is my cycle; hopefully this cycle gives Mr. DB and me what we have been dreaming for!

My Ovaries Suck.

O - Where oh, where are you? Your inconsistent appearances makes TTC difficult. You give signs you are going to show and then don't. Positive OPKs, EWCM, and a high, soft cervix? All are signs you are on your way. But here I am on CD 27 and there's no confirmed O :( Please make up your mind and decide one way or another what you are doing. If you are coming, great. If not, stop leading me on with fertility signs.

Due to my lack of O and my promising fertility signs, Mr.PB&J and I have been having sex on a regular basis......too regular. And if I can be honest, I'm tired. Some married couples complain they don't have enough sex, I on the other hand, am complaining because I have too much sex! Mr. PB&J is worn out too. Months and months of sex will do that to a couple. Now I have to entice Mr. PB&J with bribes of back rubs and sandwiches in exchange for sex. Ha. I swore I would never let TTC take over our sex life but here we are.......here. I tease Mr. PB&J that he is living in a world of paradise. Sex everyday, followed by a back rub and a sandwich! Life is good! Hmm, maybe he's smarter than I give him credit for and he's milking sex for all it's worth?!

Haha.

Wait. Hmm??

But check out my whacked out chart. I can't make sense of it. All signs are pointing to yes, I am going to ovulate in the next few days. I hope so. But that just means more sandwich making in my future.

Until Next time,

PB&J Bud

Anniversary and Possibly Ovulating...

So on Monday is our Wedding Anniversary, and we are taking a little trip. We are leaving tomorrow (Sunday - More like today), and will return on Tuesday afternoon. Just the two of us, for a little getaway :) I am really looking forward to it... I seriously have been needing a vacation! And I know we just came back from a vacation for the Holidays... but I have been so swamped with work and Opera and everything, that I am seriously due for another ;)

So, for the past couple of days I have had some creamy white discharge. I am kind of thinking this may mean I may be O-ing in the next few days... But, of course, I can't be too sure, given my "issues" and the fact that I am off of my charting game since the past couple of months. I am, however, taking Metformin as of the last couple of weeks and have been kind of slacking on it this week :-/ It made me a bit sick the first week, causing some nausea and vomiting (like morning sickness caused by birth control pills or pregnancy - not that I know about the pregnancy side of it). I lost a few pounds, but slacked this week so I lost muscle instead, which is a no-no. My Dr. prescribed me an appetite suppressant that will help speed up my metabolism a bit, so that should help as well :) I guess it's just a matter of being patient, is all.

Anyway, going to go finish packing and go knock out... it's been a long week, and I want to rest-up before we head out tomorrow :)

Welcome to Town, Cycle 4!

Here we are. AF has come and gone, and I am ready to start over. HUZZAH!

I'm telling myself to feel optimistic about this cycle for a few reasons. Number one being that I have cleared the requisite three cycles post-BCP that it should take for my body to regulate. Never mind that my body has never been what one might call regular. Details, that's what they are, and hardly ones worth mentioning.

Secondly, my Mother is thoroughly convinced that this is TOTALLY my cycle. She looked at me all serious-like the other night and said "Look at me. It will happen soon." It was all very prophetic sounding, though I'm not sure what this says about my future child. Will he/she be born at the solstice and be the One?

I get that I'm grasping at straws here, but the beginning of a new cycle does this to me. After the monotonous waiting through a super long Pre-Ovulatory phase, then a freakishly long luteal phase and finally being back where I can DO something, is pretty darn exciting.

Plus, I'm totally BD-ing tonight. I guess its not really BD-ing though, if I'm still waiting to O. But seriously, it's been like a week because of AF. Unacceptable.

Hoping you love me even when I am inappropriate,

*taps foot*

Let me start by saying... I am NOT patient. At all. I hate waiting. Hate hate hate it.

So this wait to see the RE again on the 24th? DRAGGING. Holy cow, it's going so slow. And of course in the meantime, I'm perusing Dr. Google. Trying to absorb any and all information on injections and high FSH and IUI, etc.

I've never wanted to ovulate so badly in my life and for completely different reasons than normal! Usually it's to get to the baby making. But since that is such a slim chance on our own, now I want to ovulate so that I can hurry up and get my 7dpo bloodwork and get in to see the RE to actually hear the next steps out of his mouth and get my prescription and get this show on the road.

Waiting, waiting waiting... SUCKS.

Can't hurry love, you'll just have to wait...

Apparently you can't hurry ovulation, either. It's CD 46. My temp skyrocketed (sort of) this morning, and I'm hoping and praying it isn't another fluke like the two I had at CD 10 and 32. I'm not entirely hopeful, because I had to wake up early this morning and I tossed and turned for about an hour in a half-awake-but-not-coherent-enough-to-temp sort of way before I actually woke up. I was awake enough to know I was awake, but I kept drifting back into my really weird dream about running from the new president. (Michael Caine was the new president, and he wanted to kill everyone wearing plaid. I, of course, was wearing three layers of plaid)

The point is, I don't know if all that half-waking-up muddled my temp. So my lovely high temp could truly be lovely and high, or it could be purely the result of Michael Caine's people chasing me through barbed wire fences.

I suppose only time will tell.

Today's piece of totally helpful TTC advice: "Decide you don't want it anymore." Yes. That's why I'm not getting pregnant. My ovaries are trying to spite me.

There is a reason I am called Planner Bud

As many of you may remember, I talked about the "relax method" of TTC. I guess I did try my own version of that over vacation. In a way I was forced to. I remember on Thursday morning taking my BBT out of my bedroom and packing it; however, it must have jumped ship before I zipped up the suitcase, for I could not find it anywhere come Thursday evening. Instead of trying to find a pharmacy in Orlando (which I guess I could have done), I decided I would "wing it" as much as I could. I still used OPKs and checked CM. I mean I can't through everything out the window that would ludicrous! "Maybe not temping will be helpful to me" I thought. "Maybe this will help to relax me." I definitely enjoyed not having to make sure I woke up at 5:15 every morning to temp.

Fast forward to this morning. I was positive I O'ed on cd 18 when my next two temps jumped up over 97 degrees, a sure sign of O. Today it was back down (96.73). Now the temp is not my normal superlow temp; it could still show O, but I have like 3 other temps earlier like that. I truly believe that if I didn't miss those five days of temping my chart would magically make sense. I know, makes no sense. I and just going to seduce DH into BD every other night or more if I can until I see some progress. I am still not giving up hope that I did O on cd18. Any thoughts??

At least I have a lot to think about in the next few weeks. I start work on next Friday and the kids come next Wednesday. I have tons to plan for. Maybe it will take my mind off of things. Yay right!

Short, Sweet, to the Point.

I'm still chilling on the Pre-O train, but my temps are slowly (very slowly) climbing, and my CF has been on and off fertile, which, who even knows what that means.

My reproductive system is so confused, poor thing.

Frankie says "Relax"

I am sure that every single one of you ladies who ever TTC has heard the phrase that all TTC women cringe at: "Just relax and it will happen." Really is that all it takes? Why didn't you tell me eight months ago? I thought we had to have sex multiple times around my time of ovulation. Now I know exactly what we have been doing wrong. Geesh!

Many people in our lives know that Mr. PB and I are TTC (I just can't keep anything secret), but no one really knows the extent to which we are trying. My good friend, who is also TTC, and my mother are the only two that I have even mentioned charting and opks to, and even then it has just been in passing. For everyone else I normally just say "We are just being really relaxed about it and seeing what happens." HA! Those people who actually really know me must know that I am lying through my teeth. I don't do anything that way. I mean, I already know exactly what parks in Disney Mr. PB and I are going to on what days and what rides we are going to go to first. It is just the way my brain works; why in the world would I use the "relax" philosophy when it comes to conceiving my child.

My mother imparted the "relax" philosophy on me earlier last week when I told her that AF had come and I was making myself feel better with a cheeseburger and fries (5 Guys...best PMS food EVER!). These were her exact words "Don't worry so much about making sure that it is 'perfect' time, just do enjoy it and do it when it comes naturally." Gee, thanks mom for the sex advice. Now how am I really supposed to respond to that? "Okay, but then don't expect a grandchild for another few year. Mr. PB only really wants sex about once a week and sometimes that is stretching it." Yes, Mr. PB is one of those guys, but he didn't spring it on me until we were together for about 7 months and already madly in love. Not to get too much in detail, but I am a girl who could enjoy it nightly and we did at the beginning. However, now if I left things up to Mr. PB, we would be together maybe once a week, twice if I was real lucky. See the problem with the "relax" wisdom here? There is only so many times a girl can try to seduce her man (failing frequently) without him figuring out that it is that time of the month. I found quickly that it worked better if I just told him it was BDing time. Is this really information I could give to my mother to contradict her "relax" wisdom? Probably not. Now don't get me wrong, Mr. PB and I do have a great sex life; I just can't rely on our normal schedule to help us conceive.

As the summer is drawing quickly to a close and August 27th is creeping closer and closer, I am painfully aware that the "When are you having children" question and the "relax" wisdom will be hitting me more frequently as I return to work. I have decided I need a witty yet informative comeback that would keep further questions at bay. This witty yet informative comeback however has not been created yet...suggestions??

I think I may just put the "relax" wisdom out of my mind for the next week and focus on the things that are occurring right now: our anniversary, our Disney vacation, and that very special time in a TTC woman's life, waiting to O. Here's to a great week, a fantastic anniversary celebration and hopefully a Disney baby. Maybe that could be my comeback: "Actually relaxing doesn't help. However Mickey Mouse, OPKs and charting seem to do the job perfectly!"

Green Tea and Waiting to O

This entry is going to have something startlingly like ADHD. I apologize in advance.

Still waiting on O. Le sigh.

On the bright side, watery CM yesterday, which I gave the total side-eye to. What is it doing here so early in the cycle? Not that I'm complaining, I just have the relationship with my reproductive organs that other people might have with a younger brother that is prone to pranks. He may seem genuinely and innocently trying to offer you a cookie, but if said cookie turns out to have crushed cockroaches in it, you can't say you shouldn't have known better.

I'm not sure that analogy made any sense. The connection seems shaky, even to me.

In GP (kind of) news, I've found the solution to green tea. For those of you who didn't know there was a problem with green tea, there is. It tastes like something is missing. FYI, it's mint. Green tea tastes like the absence of mint. But, one stop at the grocery store and I am swimming in green-tea-minty-yumminess. Delish. And good for baby making. Allegedly.

I'm very sorry for the incoherent-ness of this entry. I'm a bit frazzled at the moment and my brain is going in ten different directions. But I still love you all.

Mad as a Loon,
Cherry Bud

FF and Ovulation Fairies

I'm staring at my FF chart.

I think I'm actually hoping that it's going to tell me something I don't already know. I do have a tendency to treat it like one of these:

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"Oh, FF, will I O this month?" shake shake shake Uncertain. Try back in ten to fifteen days

What use are you, Fertility Friend, if you can't tell me my future? That is not what friends do.

Right now, I think I'm just dreading another cycle like the last one, even though all signs (you know, all seven days of them) point to a cycle that is going perfectly. Suspiciously perfectly. I don't trust AF at all, to be honest. It would completely like her to go away to lull me into a false sense of security and then slam me with three days of medium flow madness. I'm on to you, AF.

On the other hand, the sweet RN who went over Provera with me told me "Well, dear." She calls me dear. I love her. "Well, dear, Provera can sometimes just give your system a jumpstart and help it regulate itself. There's every chance that will happen." So there that is.

So here I am, begging the ovulation fairies (who totally exist. They live with the BFP fairies) for a temp rise. At some point. Not right now, because that would be completely counterproductive, but you know, in a week or two, after lots of BD-ing has happened.

On an almost unrelated note, Dinner with Mr. Cherry Bud's family tonight. I think I may play a (non-alcoholic) drinking game regarding how many times someone tells me that I will get pregnant as soon as we stop trying. Or when we least expect it.

On a completely unrelated note, I kind of want to see Inception again because how amazing is Leonardo Dicaprio? So amazing, that's how much. Almost as amazing as Christopher Nolan, the genius.

The world seems against us.

Once again I am waiting to O and my seemingly good chances have changed. Earlier this week, I started to get a sore throat but since I have seasonal allergies, I wrote it off as that. Not so much. Yesterday I began feeling coldy and today I was home sick. This is the second cycle (out of 5) where I have been sick around ovulation time. I am person who very rarely gets sick, so that makes it worse.

Since I finished graduate school this past week, I was thinking all my stress would be gone and I could pick up doing yoga again. Well that didn't last for long. I got home from work and DH told me that he is having serious cuts at work and his job is iffy. The responsible person inside of me thinks this would be a good time to TTA, but the emotional person in me wants to keep trying incase there are infertility issues. Also we could survive on my pay and small part time from DH we could survive. It would be tight, but we wouldn't have to pay for daycare. Well I guess for once in my life I can be spontaneous and if it happens it happens. I will definitely let you know how that goes.

Waiting to O -- CM confusion

Nothing too big to report; I am currently waiting to O, which is probably 7 days away. At times, I think waiting to O is worse than the 2ww. Everything is out of your control. If your body decides to surprise you and O early, you can easily miss what you are so desperately waiting for. The lack of control is what I hate. No matter how well I eat or drink my green tea, I cannot make my body O when it is convenient for Mr. PB and myself. Well it looks like we may be busy this weekend and early next week, just in time for my masters' thesis defense, great!

As I am waiting to O, I am looking closely at my CM and am realizing just how much my body loves to play with me. A few days ago, my CM was clearly sticky except for one little strand of stretchy white mucus. Come on, what is that supposed to mean? One little sliver of my body is fertile? Yesterday is very wet with a small bit of tacky mucus thrown in. Is this some kind of funny joke? How confused can I make Planner Bud? After 6 cycles of charting, you would think I would be able to pick the various types out with no thought. Not so.

Oh well, since I got what I believe was wet CM last night, Mr PB and I decided to BD every other night until we get a positive OPK. Mr. PB has the whole week planned and seems very much on board this month. So maybe the fourth time will be the charm. I will keep you posted!

STILL no O

CD33 and I still haven't ovulated.

I guess this puts me back in the long-cycle club. I have been teased by a few small temp rises, only to be let down the next morning when it drops again. This is really hindering my progress with my TTC plan, since I have to wait until CD1 to schedule my HSG. As I mentioned in my previous entry, Mr. Sassy Bud is also waiting to do his S/A until then. I like to call this TTC limbo.

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Yep that's me. Somewhere between TTC heaven and hell.

I sit and hope for a BFP to end this craziness but I also am trying to be realistic to avoid the roller-coaster of emotions when AF comes. And she does. Every month.

Non-TTC life is good. Once this school term and tax season are over, I'm going to visit my sister and nieces and nephew in Texas. We are also celebrating our anniversary and Mr. Sassy Bud's birthday by taking a trip to Atlantic City and New York City. I have never been to either place so I am very excited to be able to go. I am also going to visit one of my "nestie besties" while I am there, so that is something great to look forward to.

Until then, I wait, and wait, and wait.

Patience is a virtue

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I'm on to a new cycle now, but not without a lot of heart-wrenching false hope getting here. Last week, I let myself believe I saw faint lines on some dollar tree tests (despite blatant BFNs on FRERs), bought into the phantom symptoms, and set the stage for a total meltdown once AF came. It was rough, and I vow to never allow myself to do it like that again. My days of testing before 15dpo and charting signs are done - forever.

The whole experience taught me something: Sometimes the best things in life take a little patience. I'm used to getting what I want when I want it, and so far, that isn't happening on the TTC front. It reminds me a little bit of the hoping and waiting for the ring that I went through a couple years ago. I wanted to be engaged so badly, and when a friend was proposed to before me, I was so jealous. Another friend told me something that really stuck. She said "Jane has already had her proposal moment. It's all just memories for her now. You still have yours to look forward to, savor every minute!"

I know that I still have my BFP to look forward to. Someday, I'm going to POAS and that second line will show and my life will change forever. I will have made a whole new life with the man I love, and I can't wait. It's going to be wonderful. The fact that it hasn't happened yet means that I still have that to look forward to. And I intend to savor every minute!

I'm alive I promise!

Okay I'm very sorry I have been missing. With the holidays and work its been busy here. Anyways for all my followers ::::crickets:::::: here's what is going on with my life!

First of all I am on my 2nd cycle of clomid. It seems last cycle was a bust but not really. I didn't spot which was amazing and really made me happy however there was no magical BFP at the end of the rainbow. There was yeah you know.

How's the clomid? Well it sucks, but I am very lucky!To be honest I don't have side effects like most have. I really don't have the mood swings or headaches but I do get some hot flashes at night. Nothing the AC can't fix. There was only one time this cycle when I was in a blah mood but I got over it pretty fast.

So here I am. I'm on CD 11 and my fertility monitor is telling me I am at high fertile days. I'm thinking its the clomid. I know most girls say clomid lowers their CM for some reason mine is higher (weird I know).

Monday is the big day when I visit the RE for the first time. I know its early in the game. I totally understand this. Its been 7 months however these 7 months every.single.month we have had perfect timing. There aren't any days where we didn't have sex when I ovulated. And I am sick and tired of spotting. I know the clomid fixed it but I would like to be monitored and my OB gave me a referral to his friend downstairs.

I'm nervous and excited. I'm nervous he is going to say, sorry this is wrong with you. At the same time I am excited. Maybe he will give me some progesterone and kick me out of his office =) The good thing we know is that Mr. OB has some awesome awesome counts. We are so fortunate. So it seems like we are just dealing with my issues.

I can't wait to give you guys an update on what the RE says. It will be a GREAT way to start off my 2010 year!

In other news, I have lost 7 lbs! Wooo hooo! I'm so excited. Who loses 2 lbs of weight on a 2 week cruise? WAVES!!! I do! I'm so ecstatic! Finally its coming off! I'm still working out like crazy and watching what I eat. I know if anything the RE will be happy I am doing this. And I'm happy I'm doing this!

Here's a toast to 2010! I'm really hoping this is the year Mr. OB and I can say we are knocked up to our friends and family!!

PS Christmas was wonderful! We hosted this year and Mr. OB got me 3 months of Personal Training sessions and some wonderful real black pearl earrings!

Today I did something I never thought I'd do again...

I called my pharmacy and re-filled my Rx for my old BCPs (AKA the "devil").

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I don't know why, but that felt like a HUGE step for me. A few months ago, I declared that I would never take them again & now here I am, about to begin taking them to make a baby (or two)! Seems counter-productive right?!

I am pretty certain that I will be O'ing today or tomorrow. I have had 2 + OPKs today, lots of O pain & some EWCM. I actually hope I don't O until tomorrow b/c we BD'ed yesterday & I wanted to give Mr. WB's little swimmers time to recuperate before BD'ing again. I will know for sure by tomorrow's temp. The past few cycles I have been getting + OPKs the day before I O though, so hopefully it'll be like that this time as well. I know it's pretty crazy of me, but I just keep hoping & praying that we will just get our miracle BFP before we move on to IVF. I know that my RE said our chances are less than 5% of that happening, but that is not 0% right? Oh & 1 last note about this cycle - I decided NOT to do the Prometrium suppositories & just let this cycle finish up naturally. I figure if I'm meant to have a longer LP, then I will & if not, then on to IVF & hopefully our miracle & sticky BFP!!

So, I know a few posts ago I discussed our financing plan. We are still sticking with that, but my RE also offers Shared Risk IVF. Our RE was one of the first fertility centers to offer any program like this & I have done my research & they have one of the best Shared Risk programs available both in & outside of our state. Basically, you get up to 6 fresh IVF cycles & unlimited frozen embryo transfers (FETs) - however many it takes for the delivery of a live baby. So if you get pregnant on your first cycle, but miscarry - even a late loss, then you can go through the process again. If you do not deliver a live baby by the end of all of those fresh/frozen cycles, then you get 100% of your money back. You must be accepted into the program, but my RE says that he is 99% positive that I will be accepted into the program. The only thing I have to do is the mock embryo transfer & if all goes well then we will be in! I am very optimistic that there will be no issues for us getting in to the program based on my health & absence of any female fertility issues. I know you are all wondering what the cost of something like this is - well, at my fertility center, for IVF w/ ICSI it's $22K. It sounds like a lot, but it is just a little bit more than 2 IVF cycles. If we get pregnant and deliver a healthy baby(ies) on the first try, then that is awesome...we won't feel like we lost out on the additional money because we will have our darling little baby(ies) in our arms. Doing it this way will give us financial peace of mind as we go through the process of IVF, which will certainly relieve some of the stress that some other IVF'ers feel. I feel so blessed that we go to an RE that even has option like this available & am confident that we will have a LO of our own one day soon! Please continue to send all the prayers & wishes that all goes well our way...they mean more to me than you will ever know. :o)

I'm in love with my doctor.

Not really. Or maybe. My OB/GYN takes me so seriously. I really do love how much he respects me. And best of all believes me.

So lets talk about my appointment yesterday. I went into to see Dr. Jenkins and this was our conversation.

Dr. J : Mrs OB, you are back? I guess you aren't pregnant yet.

Erica: Yep, I know something is wrong. My husband has great counts and I feel like his sperm don't get a real chance at surviving. I don't have a normal Luteal Phase and I know its causing problems. I used to be so normal... until I gained weight but I promise I'm trying to lose it. I promise.

Dr. J: Oh I know. I see you all the time working out with Elaine. I know you are trying.

Mrs OB: Umm what the hell? How the hell do you know my personal trainer's name?

Dr. J: Oh she's my trainer also.

Mrs OB: I promise I'm not stalking you. I promise its the only good gym around here.

Then we go on to talk about my cycles and LSU football. And then working out. And then LSU football again.

He really is a great doctor. We decided the weight could have caused some issues with me however, I am working hard to lose it and I could probably use some progesterone supplements and maybe some clomid.

So here I am today. A happy duck with a plan. A plan to continue working out, a plan to use the progesterone and maybe the clomid this cycle. I'm excited! Not only for the plan but for our vacation!

Sorry guys, I will be gone for 2 weeks. 2 weeks of bliss with my wonderful husband. I'm so excited!

I decided I would also give a thank you shot out for Thanksgiving.

5 months ago today, Mr.OB went under the knife to have his first surgery, brain surgery. 5 months later my husband is healthy and we are going on a trip of a lifetime. Its truly amazing and unbelievable what has happened in 5 months. 5 months ago I was praying to God just to not take away my husband. 5 months later, I am thanking God for a wonderful life he has given us. I am so thankful for this opportunity we have. 5 months after our horrific ordeal we are going on an unbelievable vacation. 5 months later I am packing our bags with my husband, who won't let me pack the dogs. I'm thankful for the friends and family who got us through this roller coaster. 5 months later, you can even tell we experience what we experience.

And that is what I am thankful for.

And now we wait...

Yesterday was a big day - I had my HSG & Mr. Worry Bud dropped off his "sample" for the SA. Those were the final two big tests that we have to go thru. We need some additional routine b/w done as well & will probably get that done tomorrow on our day off. I will be sooo happy when we get thru with all this testing & *hopefully* find that there is nothing wrong with either of us! As I have mentioned before, we will go in for the followup consultation with the RE on December 18th & we will discuss next steps with him. Although, I think we are pretty firm in our decision to continue to try on our own for a few months if the test results raise no concerns. Especially if this cycle's LP is as long or longer than last cycle's.

Results:
My HSG was relatively uneventful. I took 4 ibuprofen about an hour beforehand & then drove in for the test. The HSG itself was very quick - took less than 5 minutes total! I had slight cramping while the dye was going thru my uterus & tubes, but it was fine once it stopped. I also had slight discharge of the dye for a few hours after the procedure, so I just wore a panty liner the rest of the day yesterday & it was all good. This morning, I am having slight cramping, but nothing unbearable. The Dr. said that I got the "fastest HSG of the day" award because the dye went straight thru my tubes quickly & he also said everything looked "textbook normal" - my uterus was the normal triangular shape & my tube were nice & straight & clear.

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It was huge sigh of relief for us that basically everything looks fine as far as my testing goes!! Mr. WB's SA results will take 3-5 business days, so I will be anxiously awaiting those. But, I bet everything will be just fine & we really didn't have anything to worry about at all (which is what he said all along)! I really think I talked about it a bit in a previous post, but I feel like the fact that my LP lengthened was a sign from God to just continue trying on our own & we will get PG eventually (hopefully sooner rather than later), so I am pretty comfortable with waiting on his timing at this point if all of our test results come back normal.

In the mean time, I am just getting ready for Thanksgiving (Mr. WB's family is coming up from about 4 hours away & we are hosting our first married Thanksgiving at our home), and also focusing on finishing up our Master Bath renovation project - which has been quite the challenge! Hopefully I will O in the near future here & we can start trying for our Christmas baby! Thanks for all the kind words & well wishes - they keep my spirits up!

A huge weight lifted off my shoulders

I am the type of person who obsesses over the littlest things. That's what I do and who I am. The minute we found out about Mr.OBs medicine and how it could cause some fertility issues I freaked. I started to worry and obsess. Then I realized he is strong amazing and got through brain surgery and we could get through anything in front of us.

I tried really hard to see life in a different perspective and tried not to worry and obsess and think about the good things in life. It was very hard. We decided on the advice of Mr.OB's doctors to go ahead and get an SA. And great news..

ITS NORMAL!!!

I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel like I won't stress so much. I feel like I can calm down now. It just feels so great to have this reassurance. That's how I am. I need someone to reassure me about things.

I'm so happy. I'm so thrilled. I'm feel so ridiculously grateful. We have been through so much together and I just can't for the day to tell Mr. OB he knocked me up!