20 Weeks

So excited to be halfway there to meeting Baby BB! I had my 20 week appointment yesterday and everything went well. Here are a few updates:

Belly Measurement/Weight: I gained 2 1/2 pounds so I am up a total of 6 1/2 since I got pregnant.

Physical Progress: I wear maternity clothes all the time and definitely look pregnant. I am pretty sure my boobs are still growing! They are so heavy too.

How I am feeling about my body: I feel great about my body, I love looking pregnant!

Cravings/Aversions: None really.

Energy Level: I am starting to get tired more again. It takes effort to go up and down the stairs. I get tired after going on walks as well. I haven't been sleeping well because I have been uncomfortable so I feel tired all the time. I definitely sleep whenever I can.

Baby Movement: Baby BB moves all the time! He/she is very active. I love it, baby moving gives me reassurance that everything is ok in there.

My anatomy scan and fetal echocardiogram is tomorrow. Originally my midwife had it schedule for July 6th but I expressed some anxiety in waiting so she moved it up! I am excited to see my baby but nervous that we will have a similar situation to my scary NT scan. I am hoping and praying that everything is normal with baby so I can stop worrying. Hopefully baby's measurements and everything are perfect and we won't need any more tests/procedures. My midwife told me that because all my other tests, the CVS and bloodwork, came back normal there is really nothing to worry about.

I keep having dreams that my baby is a girl! The last two dreams someone has taken her away from me and I spend the entire dream trying to get her back. I always do get her back at the end of the dream and she knows I am her mom. I am not sure why I keep having these dreams, I always wonder if it is a sign that we are going to have a girl since baby is always a girl. Since we are Team Green we will not know until November whether I am right or not.

I will definitely update after my scan tomorrow. Wish us luck!

MORE baby dreams...

Well, 1 more, to be exact... Last night. It was so vivid and felt so real! Again, I had a boy... but it was one of those situations where I didn't know I was pregnant until the last minute, and then I had the baby and we went around surprising everyone and showing off the baby. It was SO weird, but so great at the same time. It felt so real. Again, it was super hard to wake up and realize it was just... a dream -_-

I don't know if these dreams mean anything... I don't know what to m

ake of them. Have any of you had any baby dreams throughout your TTC journey? I am sure you have, because dreams are connected to thought process, and if you're thinking about it, there's a big possibility that you'll dream about it. But, I haven't really been thinking about this stuff lately. I had a baby shower today, but I hadn't really given the baby stuff too much thought, even though we were going to a baby shower. I am just finding this so strange, and it's making my "situation" harder to deal with.

I don't know if I mentioned this (I may have, but I don't recall at the moment), I found out about a month or so ago that a girl I know is having a baby... due around the same time I would've been due, married only a little longer than me. It broke my heart when I found out, because as if it's not already hard enough remembering the loss, but now I am going to have someone having a baby around my due date. The night I found out, they kept talking about all the cute baby bows and stuff, and I just started thinking... Well, I finally saw a pic of the girl and her baby bump, just now, and can't help but thi

nk of what I would've looked like today... on this very day... with my 5 month-old bump, looking all happy.

le sigh. :-/

Dreams

Lately I have been having quite a few baby dreams. This goes without saying... I rarely remember my dreams as it is, but for some reason I have been having some pretty vivid and realistic dreams! It's amazing... I have already dreamt about either having a baby or being pregnant in two different nights! Time to start researching what dreams mean (even though it may not mean anything, since dreams are just all your thoughts coming together). I blame it on my hopes of getting KU this Summer.

Only time will tell :)




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!4 and 15 week update OR Inception: Pregnancy Edition

Hello, ladies, and welcome, new buds!

Seriously, I have to post more. Life has been hectic, but even I'm starting to go "Wait, Cherry who?"

I am immensely sorry.

Anyway, updates.

- No more morning sickness! YAY! Except when I don't eat. Which happens an alarming amount. Pre-pregnancy, I was one of those people who could completely forget breakfast and not eat until dinner and be fine. You know those people. They're obnoxious and everyone secretly waits for the day when they discover chocolate cake and eat themselves to 400 pounds. Anyway, now that I'm pregnant, the habit is still to wake up fiftenn minutes before I have to be at work, throw on my clothes and jet. Then, at 9:30, right in the middle of morning circle time, my stomach says "CHERRYBUDFEEDMENOW!!" So I've taken to not only actually eating breakfast for the first time since I was in high school (I know. Revolutionary.), but taking these things to work with me:

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They keep my tummy sane. I will say that, when you are the "teacher" in a room full of one year olds, it's hard to sneak bites of cracker without having huge baby eyes in your face saying "So, you gonna finish that?"

- We signed up for childbirth classes today. The goal is to (gulp) get through labor without an epidural. Go ahead. Laugh. Roll your eyes. Pat me on the head and say "That's sweet." But I'm at least going to try, so we've signed up for Bradley Classes, which come highly recommended by several friends who have made it through labor without meds. We were actually incredibly late signing up, and only managed to get a spot because another couple opted out. So woo-hooo!

- My dreams of late have become increasingly disturbing. Seriously, it's like Christopher Nolan has invaded my head. The dreams are so vivid and real. Plus, some of them are a little on the..umm..naughty side and that's just a whole mess of confusing, when I have never felt less sexy in my life.

- And, lastly, this is what I look like right now. Ignore the gaping black hole behind me. Please. It was that or bear witness to my piles of laundry.

Until next time,

Can I just turn my REM cycle off please?

I woke up crying from yet another crazy dream. This one was so realistic, I would have sworn it was real if I hadn't actually woken up. I dreamed that I POAS and a big huge YES+ popped up immediately. Ran and got another stick and *BAM* a :) showed up (though I don't know a digital pregnancy test with a smiley face LOL). One more and the words PREGNANT showed up clear as day. I was bouncing all over the place like crazy and called my best friend who came over and jumped up and down with me.

And then the cat jumped on the dresser and knocked something off and woke me up. And I promptly burst into tears.

I hate this. I wish there was a switch to just turn your dreams off. Ones that like really freaking hurt.

I started cramping last night and it's continued this morning so I'm pretty sure AF is on her way soon. Probably just in time to ruin my u/s appointment tomorrow morning to check on my uterine lining since my body is a big huge *BEEP*.

A dream is a wish your heart makes...

Last night, I had the most beautiful dream. My daughter was pushing a younger child on the swing. That child had dark curly hair and a face identical to my daughter's. They were both laughing and giggling. My daughter bent down and kissed her and hugged her and told her she was the best sister ever and they walked away hand in hand, skipping.

I didn't want to wake up. I wanted to stay in that beautiful moment forever.

Someday...

Leah Jane

I'm not going to say much because honestly I don't have much time. But I'll be back later, I promise.

I did want to share with you a dream that I had that I cannot get out of my head. It's linked to another blog of mine. It's a more private blog, but this is pertinent to what I feel I'm going through, so have a look.

Our Beautiful Chaos--Leah Jane

Until next time,

Travel Bud