Pity Party - Table for 1

I was planning on posting today about Mr. TB's urology appointment, but all I can think about is my temp drop today.  I finally got the results of my 7DPO blood work yesterday.  My progesterone was 11.3, which is better that the previous 7.35, but not by enough.  Apparently they want to see +10 for a regular cycle, but +15 for a medicated cycle, which mine was.  The Dr. wasn't in today, but the nurse is going to talk to her and call me today.  I don't think she'll do anything because she said that the 7DPO b/w will be too late for this cycle, and she said that she doesn't want to do anything with progesterone until after I get my thyroid checked out with the endocrinologist, which won't be until the end of cycle 9.  

I know that may not sound like a long time, but we also just had to push our appointment with the RE back as well, because Mr. TB can't make our original appointment.  That appointment is now May 10th, which won't be until the start of cycle 11.  So I'm just having myself a pity party.  This cycle is probably a bust, and it feels like the next 2 will be as well. 

I've also been eating like crap the last 2 days.  I've been crazing junk food like none other - fries, chips, soda, etc.  I'm sure I'm putting on weight which I really can't afford to do.  I was hoping that the crazing might mean something (even though I know that's ridiculous) but now I'm just mad at myself for giving in.  Blah.

Bad Baby Planner Bud No Disney Trip for You!

That's right, future baby PB (wherever you may be), your Mom and Dad are going to be taking the first family PB Disney trip (hopefully of many) just the two of them. However don't be too sad, Grandpa and Meme PB are already talking about taking a whole family trip to Disney once you arrive (whenever that may be) and can fly, even if you don't remember a thing.

Yes, it looks like Mr. PB and I will be enjoying our anniversary trip to Disney sans fetus. AF decided to show her ugly face this morning with no warning signs other than a drop in temperature. The sneaky biatch didn't give me usual week of incredibly sore breasts and stiff back and few days of painful cramps; she just thought it would be funny to sneak up and make me think my temperature dropping was just a fluke. She even came a day late! Can you believe that? Well we are onto cycle 8.

Even though I had my breakdown today when Mr. PB came home from work and I am definitely looking forward to my greasy dinner of a cheeseburger and fries, I am not entirely distraught. Don't get me wrong, I can't believe we are moving onto cycle 8 and still haven't conceived, but I can't wait for our trip next week. We planned this Disney trip for our anniversary about 8 months ago because DH didn't want to go for our honeymoon. At the time of planning, I had visions on myself slightly waddling through the park and picking up small gender specific trinkets (for of course we would know the gender by then) and getting baby PB his/her first pair of Mickey ears with his/her name on the back. Months into TTC, I figured I wouldn't be far enough along to know the gender or name, but would still need to keep occupied while Mr. PB was busy on rides that I couldn't go on with baby PB. I planned on picking up a couple stuffed animals (I had my own quite large collection of Disney stuffed animals as a child) and a few gender neutral items. So much for my plan. However, now I can have the best of both worlds: riding all my favorite crazy rides and buying some little things for future baby PB.

The best part of the trip will be that my fertile time falls right on our trip and around our anniversary. Maybe we will be lucky enough to conceive not only an anniversary baby, but a Disney baby as well. I will try to post again right before we leave for our trip.