Question...

As you all know, I started temping a few days ago - right before the BFP. And I've read that BBTs can "predict" (if you will) a miscarriage by a decline in temps. I've still been checking my temps and wonder if I should continue? I know that hormones can effect them and I know that it'll probably drive me crazy but I think I would feel even more chaotic and out-of -control if I didn't. I mean I don't want to walk into another US (not yet scheduled, btw) blind and totally unprepared.

HELP! I need some advice from my sisters...

Unexpected...

Look what I found this morning:



Imagine my surprise when this was completely unexpected! I had been telling myself that it wasn't going to happen this month and was fine with that...I was actually looking forward to try my hand at temping next month. I'm not disappointed though that I won't get to start temping on a new cycle. ;o)

I did check my BBT this morning again and it was 98.4. I've joined FF but since I just started, it sure doesn't look like much.

Since I work in a doctor's office, it's pretty easy to have my beta checked. I was super surprised that it 640! It wasn't that high the last two times. I sure hope that's a good sign.

~~~Trying to keep a positive outlook and not think about how much it will hurt (in every way imaginable) to MC again.~~~

Kicks and Giggles...

Okay, so just for the heck of it I decided to check my temp this morning. It was 98.7. I was acutally kind of surprised that it was elevated. I decided to go ahead and start temping just in case AF shows up so that I would have a temp to count as "CD 1." So we'll see.

I promise I am going to keep checking it no matter what ~ Diva has me convinced. Besides, if I am KU then it will be able to tell me if I will MC again with a drop.

Tomorrow is CD28 so I'm anxious to check another HPT. I've even had some nausea yesterday and today so that's not helping either.

I'll let you all know!

Frustration Sets In.....Need Some Opinions

Ughh I'm so frustrated right now! Getting pregnant in the past has been so effortless. Ever since I started temping it seems this whole process has me super stressed!

• Wednesday: 7 days since AF was visiting. Watery cervical mucus. WooHoo....eggy will be dropping soon (I can always tell b/c of this)!!
  

• Thursday: 7 days since AF was visiting. Watery cervical mucus. Positive OPK. WHooHoo....in 24-36 hours I should expect to ovulate! Did the BD.
  

• Friday: Sore boobies. Positive OPK (even more distinct test line). Did the BD.
  

• Saturday: Sore boobies. Negative OPK (just for the hell of it) No BD....Mr.Bud fell asleep early.
  

• Sunday: Sore boobies.

HOWEVER, according to my FF BBT Chart, it says I ovulated on Wednesday. WTF?!!! That's only 7 days past the first day of AF! I don't know which I should believe. Temps or my OPK's. AND why in the hell do my boobs hurt?! They have never hurt before or after ovulation. They usually ONLY hurt about a week before AF arrives. And she arrived just a little over a week ago.
Here is my chart:

The past 2 days on my chart are the empty circles which means they could be wrong. I tested twice each time double checking my numbers but they pretty much stayed the same.....so I know they weren't wrong!

CAN ANYONE HELP ME MAKE SENSE OF THIS?!!

Over analyzing? So what?!

This TTC stuff is serious business... For one, I find myself thinking about it all the time, from each and every symptom I feel, to every single move I make. Still, with all of that other "stuff" I have decided to narrow my "fertility decoding tools" down to two: OPKs and BBT. Here is an update on my current findings...

To refresh your memory, and in an effort to put things into perspective, yesterday's OPK looked like this:



I decided, today, to test twice... For good measure. A little tip from Cactus Bud ;) I tested at about 6:30pm and again at 11:45pm (around the time I have been testing nightly). Here are the results from those two (earlier time on top, later time on bottom):




Now, in addition to using OPKs, I am also tracking my BBT. I began doing so yesterday, so there is not much to show... But what I have so far is this:



And now, ladies... I am more confused than ever :-/ can anyone help me decipher all of this? Is the big O coming? Or am
I waiting in vain... :-/ either way, Mr. DBud and I are about to BD... So that should help... C'mon TURKEY!!!! ;) ;) ;) lets hope that "stork" yesterday is bringing me good luck...




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Keeping Hope

So I know I said I wanted to wait and I thought about temping... but I realized I should of started temping already. But I will wait till next month to do it... and as far as trying or not... I don't want to think about it. I am not going to try, but I ain't gonna do anything to not get pregnant either. If it happens it happens. As I went into this by putting it in God's hands and for me that is where it needs to stay.

And to top it off this week has been full of headaches as well as last week. I don't remember having this many headaches, but maybe it's because I was flushing a lot of blood (sorry if TMI), but since I didn't have it for so long it had a lot to get rid of. On top of that I craved red meat so bad... which I was told because I needed iron.

Well, today was much better :) no headache woohoo... because I was getting tired of taking tylenol. So for the rest of this month I ain't gonna think about doing BBT or TTC... and just wait to see if my cycle starts again next month. Of course I want it to so I can see if it's gonna keep coming, but there is still the slight part of me that says if I don't get it please please let it be because I am pregnant :)

I can't help but hope... if I lose hope I have nothing.

On a side note I got a jar of baby dust :) that I shake at night before I go to bed :)

To or Not To BBT

So that last time I did BBT charting was years ago when I was dealing with doctors and doing clomid and other things to try and get pregnant. However, I became so overwhelmed and stressed with everything I was doing and the charting and making sure I woke up at the same time was stressing me out even more. And when you are trying to get pregnant seriously stress is the last thing you need.

So I would love some advice cause I am thinking about doing it again just so I can see what's going on with my temps etc. One part of me thinks it will stress me out again, but on the other hand I am much more relaxed now and doing things on my own terms so maybe I won't be stressed.

So questions:
Does it really matter what time a day you do it at? Any of you who do it do you do it in the morning or at night or have you tried both and did you see a difference? I know temp changes throughout the day, but if I temped the same time every night would it be okay vs temping in the morning?

Also, do you temp orally or vaginally? If so which is better... I always did orally, but the lately some friends are saying results are better vaginally.

And do you have to temp the whole month? I know some who only temp after their period ended?

Any advice fellow readers or buds would be ever so much appreciated. I just want to keep my mind as stress free as possible, but on the other hand I don't want to waste my time BBT charting if I don't do it to get accurate results.

Oh, decisions, decisions.

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Unmotivated Bud is Unmotivated

My chart is behaving a bit oddly. My temps are a good bit higher than they normally are this early in the cycle, but the hills and valleys thing looks only too familiar, so, you know, whatever.

Right now, my motivation to temp and chart is falling off the proverbial deep end. It's not that I'm giving up. Not even close. I'm just finding myself waking up in the morning and forgetting to temp, and then saying "oh well. I'll temp tomorrow." Or, like I did this morning, waking up at 7:30, rolling this way and that (because if I ignore the fact that its morning, it can stay bedtime, right? Right?), and probably completely muddling my temp. So I'm not really sure that my temps are incredibly accurate, but CM doesn't lie, and there is no way I'm ovulating any time soon.

A few firsts this cycle:

Vitex: I can't be sure if it's doing its job or not, though my sex drive is lower than normal and I've heard that's a pretty common side effect. Affect? Effect?

OPK's: Started those on Tuesday. A little early, perhaps, but I have forty of them and I don't want to miss the elusive surge. Illusive? Elusive?

NaNoWriMo: I'm participating this month. I don't think that has anything to do with my fertility, but it's still pretty nifty, I think.

Trying to force myself into motivation,

But my thermometer! Where has my thermometer gone?!

Since I'm still waiting to O and dragging my feet about getting a prescription for Provera filled, and there's only so much I can complain about my cycle, I thought I'd share with all of you a little story from this morning.

I think everyone who charts knows about the unhealthy relationship a girl develops with her thermometer.

I really hope some of you can empathize with that statement, because if not, I feel like a crazy.

Let's assume, though, that you totally get what I'm saying. So you totally feel for me when I describe what happened this morning.

Yesterday my temp went up. Way up. Higher than it has been all cycle up. It could have been a fluke, but then again, it could be exactly what I've been waiting for. As we all know, though, one temp doesn't mean anything. You need confirmation. A sustained rise. So, I was looking forward to this morning confirming whether or not I actually did O.

This morning, my "Temp!" alarm went off, as it always does, at 7AM. As I always do, I reached out a hand and groped in the darkness for the thermometer that always sits on my "night stand" (actually a baritone case. With a baritone in it).

My hand hit empty air. Not only was my thermometer not within reach, my trusty baritone case was gone, too. Mild panic. Ok, no big deal. Think.

Then it hit me.

I've spent the last week building this, and Mr. Cherry Bud, thinking we would be moving it in yesterday, cleaned our bedroom and moved all the furniture surrounding the bed so it could be moved in and assembled.

It was really very sweet of him.

But now, my baritone case, with my BBT, was shoved against the wall as far from the bed as it could possibly be. There was no way to get to it without messing with my temp.

So now I am shaking my head and sighing because I have to wait until tomorrow to know what my temp is doing.

On the bright side, thanks to Mr. CB, I have a very clean house.

There is a reason I am called Planner Bud

As many of you may remember, I talked about the "relax method" of TTC. I guess I did try my own version of that over vacation. In a way I was forced to. I remember on Thursday morning taking my BBT out of my bedroom and packing it; however, it must have jumped ship before I zipped up the suitcase, for I could not find it anywhere come Thursday evening. Instead of trying to find a pharmacy in Orlando (which I guess I could have done), I decided I would "wing it" as much as I could. I still used OPKs and checked CM. I mean I can't through everything out the window that would ludicrous! "Maybe not temping will be helpful to me" I thought. "Maybe this will help to relax me." I definitely enjoyed not having to make sure I woke up at 5:15 every morning to temp.

Fast forward to this morning. I was positive I O'ed on cd 18 when my next two temps jumped up over 97 degrees, a sure sign of O. Today it was back down (96.73). Now the temp is not my normal superlow temp; it could still show O, but I have like 3 other temps earlier like that. I truly believe that if I didn't miss those five days of temping my chart would magically make sense. I know, makes no sense. I and just going to seduce DH into BD every other night or more if I can until I see some progress. I am still not giving up hope that I did O on cd18. Any thoughts??

At least I have a lot to think about in the next few weeks. I start work on next Friday and the kids come next Wednesday. I have tons to plan for. Maybe it will take my mind off of things. Yay right!