Not much to report

So I've been a little MIA lately. Not much to report. AF finally came after 60 + days. Mr. Rosebud and I are officially ttc again. I am temping again and am on cycle day 13. I hope O comes soon. I feel that at least I am trying again instead of just playing the waiting game of AF's arrival. I really hope that it happens for us soon and to every bud on this blog who are trying as well.

AF arrival

Finally! AF showed up this morning. After this we can officially start TTC again. It has seemed like forever. I hated wishing the days away but that's what I was doing I guess. Each morning AF wasn't here (after 30 days) it was like I wanted the next day to come so I could hopefully start then. And 30 days came and went and so did 60. Now at day 63 she is finally here! After this my doctor said we are free to start trying again. At least now I'm not just waiting and waiting and waiting. I've never been so excited to see AF. Maybe she won't stay too too long!

Blah

I've been a little MIA but that's because there isn't much going on. I am on cycle day 57 and still nothing. I am getting so sick of waiting. When we start to ttc again at least I will feel that I am doing something about it but now i'm just waiting...and waiting. Waiting for AF. I'm getting so frustrated. I am going to call the doc if she doesn't show soon. And I feel that I am just surrounded with pregnancy. A girl that I work with just found out that she is having a girl today. One of our drug reps came by the clinic (she was due just a week before I was supposed to be) and now she has a belly. She said she hated looking in the mirror and that she thought she was getting so big. I would give anything for that right now. Oh and the Duggar mama is pregnant again with # 19. I'm just asking for one right now. Sorry I'm being such a Debby Downer but I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I need to just continue to appreciate what I have been blessed with. A good life with a great husband, friends, family, and my health. In the meantime I'll just wait and it will happen when it's supposed to.

Wishing And Thinking and Hoping And Praying

....that AF will show soon. It's been almost a 50 day cycle. The last time this happened, I called my doctor at day 63 to get an appointment to get the Provera shot, but AF showed that weekend before my appointment. In the meantime I am staying busy and trying not to stress over it. I have started painting again to keep busy. It makes me happy to paint and gets my mind off the stress of ttc and AF and everything else that comes with being a woman.

Getting Pregnant isn't a Bed of Roses

Hi everyone. I'm Rose Bud. I'm 28 (will turn 29 on Sunday!) and have been married to Mr. Rose Bud for 3 years. We met 5 years ago and I must say it wasn't love at first sight. I had just gotten out of a bad relationship and he was planning to move to go to grad school. Well....that all changed after going out a few times. After dating for 1 year and 1/2 he proposed. A year later we were married on July 15, 2006. We knew we wanted to have children but we also wanted "us" time for a while. It's now three years later...a house and two dogs....and we want to add to our family. I went off the pill in January 2009. My cycles were very irregular after that. My doctor recommended two regular cycles before ttc so we waited. I always hated AF but never wanted her presence more during those months of waiting for her to show up. She finally did. We had been charting during that time as well. Thanks to the girls on the nest I read a very good book (TCOYF) and starting temping/charting. We officially started trying the beginning of May and at the end of May I found out I was pregant. It was the best feeling in the world. I saw a new doctor (my regular doctor doesn't deliver babies anymore; just does gyno) and confirmed the pregnancy with a urine test. I scheduled an ultrasound for three weeks later, at which time I would be 8 1/2 weeks. I told friends, coworkers, and family. I was soooo excited.
That Sunday I started bleeding. I called the doctor and he said if I don't start cramping to just come in the office Monday so they can test my hcg levels. Sunday night I passed a clot. I was already preparing for the worst but still didn't want to hear the word. I couldn't even say it. Monday was the worst. I went into the office and there was a mother with her newborn. I almost lost it. I was an emotional rollercoaster. My levels were drawn. I had to wait 2 days to have them drawn again to see if they doubled or worse- if they fell. Two loooong days passed and I had them drawn again. It was confirmed- I was having or did have a miscarriage. I didn't have to have a D&C or have a followup appointment. I had prepared for a miscarriage but it was so hard hearing it. Going back to work and having to face everyone was hard. I cried at the drop of a hat. But each day got a little better and I got through the week. So long story short I have had one cycle since the miscarriage and I am just waiting for AF to come back a 2nd time so we can start trying again. I'm on cycle day 43 with no ovulation. Boy I never thought getting pregnant and having a baby would be so hard. It's definitely no bed of roses.

*Mr. Rose Bud and I in Savannah*