40 weeks

How far along: Well well.  Here I am at my expected due date!  YAY!  And guess what else?  No Parker.  Hehe.  Little stinker has decided to be stubborn.  But I'm okay with it...I like being pregnant.  :)

Stretch marks: Okay, I have a new one...

Movement: He's still shifting a lot.  But the movements do hurt more often.

Sleep:  Definitely tired more often than I was even a couple of weeks ago.  I'm talking sleeping 9-10 hours a night with a couple of naps during the day.  Of course this doesn't work during the week, but I rock it out on the weekends!  :)

Best moment this past week: Had my weekly OB visit this past Thursday.  I was at a "tight" 2 (yeah, loved that!) and no change in the effacing.  I still didn't / don't want to be induced, so we scheduled an induction date of the 21st.  I have an appointment on Friday and she's going to do a non-stress monitor to make sure everything is okay.  I'm ready to hold my sweet boy so it is getting a little hard waiting.

Belly button in or out: It's transformed into more of a "flatty" now that the belly is so big.

Cravings / Aversions: Been craving salad a lot here lately...kinda cooky but MAN those things are good!  And of course I still love my sweets!  ;)

Symptoms: Fatigue...cramping...SWELLING...mood swings (yep, been riding the emotional roller coaster)...and my nose is freaking huge!

Alright, that's it for now.  I'll be sure to update you all after my appointment on Friday...and of course if anything happens!  ;)

Its Here

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The due date from my first pregnancy has finally arrived. It seemed ages away when I miscarried last November. 35 weeks later, here we are.

I've had such a crazy mix of emotions this week. On the one hand, I'm grieving over what could've have been had the first pregnancy worked out. On the other, I'm so thankful for the little guy I've got growing inside now. Its a strange feeling knowing that he'd not have been possible had the pregnancy with his sibling worked out. In my situation, the first pregnancy would've only been at the 13 week mark when this pregnancy began. What's hard to explain is that I want the impossible. I want BOTH babies.

To make this week even more emotional, we're also at the crossover to 3rd Trimester (27 weeks tomorrow). I'm finding that a part of me wants to mourn what today should've been, and another part wants to celebrate the milestone for the little one on the way.

As sort of an aside, I'd like to suggest to all those that know someone who has had a miscarriage that you ask them when the due date would've been and acknowledge it when the time comes around. Not a single person I know in real life has acknowledged what today is, not even my husband. Not surprising for nobody to think of, but it kind of stings. It seems like a lot of people don't realize that even if a pregnancy loss happens really early on, there's a good chance that the mother-to-be has already calculated roughly when the due date would be. Its a date that sticks in your mind, no matter how much life has changed since the miscarriage happened.