On Edge.

Mr. Bossy & I have kept Lil' Bossy Bud a secret these past two weeks.  Only family and close, close friends know.  I can count on both hands how many people know that we're pregnant.

We decided this because of our miscarriage last November.  It is the most awful thing having to tell people that there isn't going to be a baby.  I NEVER want to do that again.

I've been taking it easy, and Mr. Bossy has been pampering me a lot.  Thursday evening, I went to use the bathroom before we were suppose to head out for dinner with a friend.  I always look at the toilet paper after I wipe.  It's just a habit.  This time, I saw a little bit of blood.  I immediately started shaking and ran to the kitchen to tell Mr. Bossy.  He barely got any words out before I was dialing my RE's office.  I told the receptionist my name and explained the situation.  Within minutes, my nurse was on the phone asking me what was wrong (the receptionist told her it was me). I was hysterical when I told her about the blood.  She was amazingly calm and asked me a few questions.

Is there a lot of blood?
Are you cramping?
Did you lift anything heavy today?

All of my answers were no.  She put me on hold while she spoke to my RE.  After what felt like a million years, she came back and had booked me for an 8:00 am appointment the next morning. 

I spent the rest of the evening in tears (needless to say- we did not go out to dinner) and prayed over and over again.  I called my mom and she offered to come over (she lives 10 minutes away), but I told her there was nothing she could do.  I spoke with my dad next, and he offered to take me to the doctor the next morning since Mr. Bossy couldn't take time off.  The spotting disappeared for the rest of the night.

I had sent my alarm for 6:00 am, but I woke at 5:00 and couldn't fall back asleep due to nerves.  I went ahead and got ready.  My dad arrived, and we began the hour drive to the RE's office.  He was chatty on the way, and I know he was trying to keep my mind off of things.

We got there right on time, and my nurse immediately called me back.  She took me back to the room and left me to get undressed.  I immediately put on my lucky socks!

My RE and my nurse both came into the room, and my RE asked me how I was doing.  I replied with- scared!!  She put the "magic" wand in and there it was- the gestational sac.  She measured and zoomed in.  In the top corner, she pointed out the fetus.  And then she saw it- a  flicker on the screen.  The heartbeat.  I was exactly 6 weeks, so she came into the room saying that we probably wouldn't see a heartbeat-  but we sure did.  I couldn't believe my eyes.  She said that everything looked great and for me to spend the rest of the day with my feet up.  30% of women spot a little and my RE's office expect their IVF patients to bleed.  I sure wish I had known this!

I reminded her that during my first pregnancy I had spotted, came in for a visit, saw the heartbeat, and during my return visit we discovered that the heart had stopped.  Of course, I had tears in my eyes and my lip was trembling as I said this.  I'm such a baby.  She reassured me that there was nothing else we could do.  I needed to stay positive.  My chances of having another miscarriage were extremely low.  I sure hope she is right.

Since then- the Lord and I have had many daily conversations, and I have been using "please" a lot.  I'm sad to say that I don't think I'll be officially excited until we get a little further along.  We love this baby and want to hold it in our arms more than anything.  I hope we do.

So far so good...

Things have been a bit busy lately. Nothing major to report, except that things seem to be progressing normally.

I am currently 6 weeks exactly, as far as my O date is concerned. My boobies have been KILLING me on a daily basis, so I guess that's good... but best of all...

TODAY IS MY FIRST PRENATAL APPOINTMENT WITH MY NEW PRACTITIONER!!! AND MR. DBUD IS COMING TOO!!!

I am so excited! I have been super excited since making the appointment last week :) I am a litt

le nervous about how things will go, but I am sure everything will be fine... I am staying very positive.

I have been trying to eat well, and for the most part have, so that's a good thing. I just know that I am going to get crap from my Mom this ENTIRE pregnancy! She has ALWAYS been obsessed with my weight (obsessed is an understatement), and since this PCOS business has made me pack on a bit more than I (or anyone) would like, she has been on my case even more. The only bad thing about this is that she starts to stress me out. She ALWAYS (not just now that I am pregnant) interrogates me about what I ate for dinner or lunch, and then gives me crap about it. I had a crazy day yesterday, filled with rehearsals and such (I am doing a show this weekend) so I picked up some McDonald's for Mr. DBud and I. I had a grilled chicken sandwich. She gave me crap for that. I guess I just have to learn to ignore it, and do my best. Other than the fact that I am overweight, I am super healthy - good cholesterol, good sugar, etc. I would like to gain as little as possible, if even anything at all, during this pregnancy. Because of my pre-pregnancy weight, I actually don't have to gain. Eating better (choices) and the same amount of calories or even a little less should be fine. I've actually been stocking up on fruit, veggies, and walnuts (which are said to be great for the Brain). I have been drinking milk, and having cereal. I have also been cooking at home as much as I can. I know my Mom only does it cause she worries about me... but she doesn't realize that she stresses me out in a bad way, even when she doesn't mean to.

Anyway, let's see what the Dr. says about my weight and varicose veins (I have had them since I was like 12 - runs in the family). I also hope that we can see our little Frijol! Or at least hear a heartbeat... after what we went through last year, I know it will be a HUGE relief to know the heart is beating. Even though I am staying EXTREMELY positive... I am still cautiously optimistic. I guess that's the normal way to be after a MC.

As far as other symptoms... Peeing (a lot) even when I haven't had much to drink, tired/sleepy especially in the afternoons, sore boobies, and a little bloating.

Hope to have a great update after seeing the Dr :) Keep us in your T&P!

6 Week Ultrasound

I had my ultrasound today! I honestly didn't expect anything to show up on the screen. Something did though, and we are expecting one baby! We even got to see the heartbeat. It is very exciting! I am going to try to stay positive and not worry too much. It is hard when the odds seem stacked against us at times. It is so exciting to actually see it though!

Home at Last

After a very long day of driving, we are finally home from Michigan! We had a fun time visiting some friends that we met and stayed with durning Little Lucky Buds adoption. I also gathered info, like pictures on his birthmothers side. I got a tiny bit, but not much on the birthfathers side.

Well I am 6 weeks along and my due date is June 8th! I am still very cautiously hopeful. It is hard to get my hopes up too much when my Dr. is so hesitant. He says not to get excited until after my 9 week ultrasound. I have my 6 week ultrasound tomorrow and I can't wait to see how it goes!!! I really hope that everything is okay! The Dr said that he expects it to be one baby from my HCG levels, although you can never know for sure. I guess we will find out tomorrow! My biggest fear is that I will go in, and nothing will show up at all:(

The ahhhmazing Bellaband and other updates

Baby Buttercup Bud and I have surpassed the 6 week mark, wahoo!

My pants have been getting tighter at night due to bloat so I have taken to unbuttoning them and walking around my house constantly pulling up my pants, cool huh? I bought a Bellaband last weekend but haven't tried it until today. It is silly but I was afraid of looking silly with my Bellaband on when I am only just past 6 weeks. Psh, bloated pregnant lady doesn't care anymore, this thing rocks! My pants feel great and snug but not too snug, just perfect.

Aside from the bloat, Baby Buttercup Bud has given me some serious nausea! I have taken to throwing up in the morning after brushing my teeth, yum. I have Preggie Pops, which are so sour and sometimes the last thing I want when my mouth is watering in anticipation of the impending throw up, is something sour. I also have some Morning Wellness tea, which sometimes helps for a little while. I usually feel pretty crappy a lot of the time though.

I also have aversions to most foods. I need to talk myself into eating, but once I think of something that sounds good, I NEED it. Mr. Buttercup Bud has brought me KFC Mac and Cheese, a special salad from this once place I love, Vernors, toast and I forgot what else. Mr. Buttercup Bud has been great!

The older Buttercup Bud kids have taken to referring to the baby as a he, especially Buttercup Boy. He really wants a brother! Buttercup girl says good morning and good night to the baby every day. They are really sweet, Mr. Buttercup Bud and I are blessed.

More updates at 7 weeks!

Best,

Buttercup Bud

Spotting Again (Updated with u/s pic)

Pretty much the same exact story as when it happened exactly two weeks ago, reddish brown spotting when I wipe. Thankfully, it seems to be winding down a bit...but its still freaking me out.

I've already spoken to the on-call doctor at my OBs office and the doc recommended taking it easy this evening (feet up, drink lots of water, no lifting or exercise) and give their office a call in the morning. Apparently they can see me if there is bleeding as its considered emergency care.

I'd really like to get in and get checked out tomorrow, no matter which hospital I have to go to. Preferably an ultrasound so they can find the source of the bleeding and (please, please, please) maybe see a little heartbeat.

Please keep Baby Cactus Bud in your thoughts tonight.

Update: I spoke with my doctor this morning and she said I needed to be checked to rule out an ectopic. Soooo, I got to spend the WHOLE day today in the ER. Awesome.

Results were mostly good news. Namely that Baby CB is where its supposed to be AND that its measuring correctly. I'm 6 weeks even going by my ovulation date (6w3d by LMP), and the little bugger was measuring 6 weeks.

There wasn't a heartbeat yet, but I'm trying to convince myself that is because its just a smidgen early. I know its roughly 50/50 odds to see it that early. I'm trying to take the measurements as a good sign and hope the future holds a heartbeat.

Here is a blurry first picture of Baby CB. The black blob is the amniotic sac and the white line in the blob is Baby CB.

(Yes, I'm a dork and took a pic of the screen because I knew they wouldn't give me a print out)

6 Weeks!

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I can't believe my ticker for this pregnancy is now on Sweet Pea. Never made it past Appleseed last time. I can't even tell you how good it looked to see an image I'd never seen before AND see it say 6 weeks. Awesome.

Not a whole lot has happened in the last couple days. Only real news it that I might have experienced my first real bought with morning sickness all day yesterday. I'm still not convinced thats what it was though. I felt warm (to myself, thermometer was fine) and was pretty nauseous all.day.long. No puking, but that doesn't say much as I have a really strong stomach. Is it bad that I'm hoping its the pregnancy both to have a 'sign' things are progressing and because I don't want to deal with my husband being sick? Woke up feeling 100% today. So strange how things come and go.

Hoping all is going well in there. This is such a weird stage. I'm past the initial excitement of the BFP, but it feels like I'm years away from getting to see Baby CB on an u/s.

Speaking of seeing Baby CB on u/s, I got news yesterday (after an HOUR on hold) about the status of my referral. Rejected. I'm going to contest it next week, we'll see how that goes. As a back up plan though right after I contest it I'm going to go set up my appointments(hopefully including the first u/s) at the military clinic. I'm pretty much figuring the contesting will fall through, and that way I'll have the ball rolling for getting things going with the new hospital. If there's one thing I've learned as a military spouse its to roll with the punches...the only constant is change. Why should healthcare be any different? *sigh* Right now I'm just trying to be thankful that regardless of where I go for treatment, I have healthcare.

6w Update

This is an exciting week in the Magnolia Bud house. Sunday, Mr. Magnolia Bud came home from eight days away for work (with a weekend trip at the end to visit friends). Tomorrow we're scheduled for our birth center tour. Which means Thursday (day after the tour), we can schedule our first official prenatal appointment. And Friday is our first ultrasound, where we'll hopefully get to see Baby Magnolia Bud's little heartbeat!

I've been pretty constantly nauseous since the end of my 4th week. It's started to come and go, instead of staying all the time, and last night I finally got a full night's sleep--for the first time in about two weeks! I'm wearing sea bands, slicing ginger root into my water bottle, drinking morning sickness tea, and taking my B6 (all in addition to eating every couple of hours). The nausea is the worst in the evenings, because I'm also still cramping a little at night, and that's also when I get heartburn and gas from dinner. Really a bad combo, haha!

Other symptoms are tender breasts and bloating. I still have both, and am relieved to have symptoms this time around! We're both really anxious and worried for our ultrasound on Friday since last time, our baby didn't develop past last weekend's dates, but until then, are trying to forget that's how we're ending our week. If you have some extra thoughts & prayers to spare that everything looks great with Baby MB, I'd appreciate them!

Lots of love,
Magnolia Bud

Ultrasound #2

We had our second ultrasound today at 6w2d. Today the RE was able to measure the fetal pole. It measured at 3.1, which he said was 6w1d. I'm not worried about a one day difference at this point. Here is the pic of our little baby:

We were also able to see the heartbeat! It is measuring at 113bmp. It was just amazing.

I haven't had any spotting or any issues whatsoever, so I am cautiously optomistic that things will continue to go well. We go back next Thursday, at 7w1d, for another u/s.

I have not had any morning sickness *yet* and I am hoping that continues. I have been feeling a little queasy at night but I haven't gotten sick, thankfully. Since starting the thyroid medication, I don't feel as tired either. I really don't even feel pregnant, except for all the bloat and my extreme hunger all the time. I'm not complaining at all though. I think I am just amazed that this is all still real.

Why can't I stop?

Seriously, I POAS a little while ago. I'm 6 weeks pregnant. I have no business POAS. But the week and a half between appointments to see the heartbeat has me in a total panic today.

The line isn't getting any darker. Granted, it's darker than the control line. A lot. But I thought maybe by now, the control line would have disappeared entirely.

I'm a total freak, I know. But I'm still having a hard time accepting this as real. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. I have horrible dreams every night about something bad happening and I tp check every time I go to the bathroom.

I really want to relax and enjoy this pregnancy but I'm having such a hard time doing so.

6 Weeks and Thoughts on Exercise

Made it to 6 weeks! I'm 6w1d today, and continue to allow myself to be more excited as each day passes. Aside from the one horrible day of sickness, I've been lucky to only get occasional nausea and a little dizziness otherwise. I've figured out that when I'm overtired or don't drink enough water, it hits me harder. I'm continuing to take B6, although most days I only remember to take it once a day.

Today, I thought I'd write a little about my workouts in pregnancy so far. I've been trying to keep up with my regular schedule, but it's been almost impossible. I'm exhausted by about lunchtime, and I'm not sleeping well--so even though I go to bed between 8 and 9 most nights, when I wake up at 6:30 I'm not as rested as I used to be after that much sleep. I'm now trying for 3 runs a week, one yoga class, and two days of lifting. So far, that's been working for me.

Yoga: Is my best friend in the exercise world right now. I'm finding that I'm all sorts of sore from what I used to consider "easy" workouts. I went to a great Hatha class last weekend (not vigorous--just 90 minutes of glorified stretching), and it fit the bill. Stretched all the right places. I'm going to try and keep going to that class in addition to my vinyasa/flow class if I'm able to work out the scheduling.

Running: My pace has slowed considerably (I wasn't "fast" to begin with, but I had been getting much faster--about 20% over my previous bests in the weeks leading up to my BFP). I'm back to my old pace, and have found that by increasing my walk to run ratios (I used to be a 10:1 run:walk girl, now I'm finding that 4:1 seems easier on my body). If my body is still not feeling so great as my runs are getting longer, I've already started to prepare mentally for a mostly walking marathon in January. I'm being very cautious, and definitely listening to my body all the time.

Lifting: My lifting is going well. I'm following the New Rules of Lifting for Women, and am still in the first stage (this week was 2 sets of 12 for each exercise). This week, I didn't increase my large-muscle weights (squats, dead lifts, etc.), but was able to increase my upper body weights (I can now lift 110lbs. in the seated row!) I don't feel as though my balance center has changed yet, and I'm noticing that ab work (it's done on the ball--jackknifes and ball crunches) has been a little more taxing. I will probably attempt to increase my weights again next week, but only slightly until I see how it feels. I do have to AW myself--I've been squatting and dead lifting with the Olympic bar this week. I never thought I'd get there!

So the lesson I'm continuing to follow is to listen to my body. It's what's growing our little Magnolia Baby, and I will listen!

Love and baby dust to each of you!

-Magnolia Bud

1st baby related ultrasound!

Yaaaay! Yesterday went awesome. I was so nervous walking into my RE's office, but Mr. Worry Bud assured me that everything would be alright...don't you love how men are always so confident? LOL. Anyways, the u/s yesterday went AMAZING!!! As soon as the tech stuck the probe (vag cam) in, we saw a big black sac and a little white mass looking thing towards the bottom of the sac (there is also the yolk sac right above the baby). That little white mass is our pride & joy - Baby Worry Bud!!


Yep, only one LO growing in there, but we are more than thrilled with that as long as our baby is happy & healthy. The u/s tech took some measurements, then zoomed in for "the fun stuff". And we saw our baby's sweet little heart flickering on the monitor (116 beats per min :o). It was one of the best moments of my life - and even Mr. WB almost cried. :) I finally felt like I could breathe at least a small sigh of relief. Afterwords, we sat down with my wonderful nurse & she gave us instructions for the next few weeks - I am to continue the Endometrin 2x a day until March 27th, then I can go down to once a day until April 4th; I also continue my Estradiol 2x a day until April 4th; stop the baby aspirin now. As soon as we left the office, Mr. WB called his mom on speaker & told her she was going to be a grandma - she cried. She always cries about EVERYTHING, so no surprise there but she was so happy.

Based on the talk with my nurse, I will get one more ultrasound at my RE's office when I'm just about 8 weeks & then will likely be released, so she advised that I call my OB/GYN to set up a prenatal appointment with them. I called yesterday afternoon & my first appointment is March 31st! It will be an "intake appointment" with a nurse & she will discuss the Dos & Don'ts, ask questions, etc. Then, the next appointment will be about two weeks later where they will listen for the baby's heartbeat with the Doppler. I plan on asking how many ultrasound's I get at my first appointment. I know for sure my OB/GYN doesn't do u/s in office, so I'd have to go somewhere else.

Today I am 6 weeks, 4 days pregnant & am due on November 6, 2010!! As always, I want to thank all of you for the continued thoughts & prayers - they have really helped us get thru this IVF cycle! I get to go back on March 26th for another look at Baby WB, woot!! Until then, I'll be counting down the days!

6 weeks already!

Time is flying by. I can't believe I'm 6 weeks already. It definitely didn't go by this fast first time around. I have a little bit of m/s, so before noon I pretty much live on Gatorade and cereal bars. Nothing else sounds good.
My new job involves a lot of physical work which is exhausting! I'm not sure how long I will be able to keep my pregnancy a secret. I kind of think one of my male co-workers might be on to me. (His FI is pregnant.) He offered to help me with a bunch of the heavy lifting today, which I greatly appreciated!
We are planning on telling Mr. Daisy Bud's family about the new little bud on Thanksgiving. I am a little nervous about telling them this early (FIL has a big mouth!). SIL had a m/c 2 years ago, so I know if anything happens, at least I have her support which will be nice.

Very Quick Update

I just got the call from the doctor. Everything looks good
21,000 for HCG and 25 for progesterone
I still have to stay on the progesterone pill though but I sure feel better. Now for the bleeding to stop.
Faith, Love, and Baby Flutters,
Mrs. BrainyBud

Not getting any better

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I'll be the first to admit that my absolute FAVORITE color to wear is red, but now I'm beginning to despise anything that color because my spotting is getting worse. It is now more abundant and has turned dark red since Monday's first incident of brownish-black. (I know TMI) But I digress, this progesterone treatment isn't working and the fact that the doctor still hasn't called with lab results that were due yesterday by noon is killing me. I just know that something is wrong, I just know it. My faith is fading as quickly as my patience. I'm trying to stay strong for Mr. BrainyBud, but I'm not sure how long that will last.

Just,
Mrs. BrainyBud

A Flicker of Hope

Today was my first prenatal appointment, and I spent about 1.5 hours there. I first was weighed and it said that I weighed 145-146 lbs, which I'm not buying that I've gained 5 lbs because I had on a heavy sweater over my shirt and boots, so we'll say that was it. I then PIAC and sat down for 2 seconds when we were called back into a tiny little room. We answered about 5 minutes of questions about family history and had my blood pressure taken, it was great as usual. Then Nurse J brought in the large ultrasound machine and we watched as she got the va-ja-jay cam ready with goo and condom alike.

Then Dr. K came in and we talked a little about SEC football (he is a UTK fan, why I like my Dr is beyond this UGA gal's thoughts) and then we told him about the brown bleeding. I started having some medium-heavy brown spotting yesterday and today which is a concern so Dr. K put me on Prometrium to keep the bleeding down and hopefully secure the pregnancy. There IS a risk of miscarriage, and he wanted to take all precautions we can today. Dr. K is going to have them run a Progesterone test in with my bloodwork and if it above 20 (I think) then we should be okay, but he's putting me on the medicine anyway in case something happens between now and then. So I'm waiting on pins and needles to see if the bloodwork shows up good tomorrow. I then got undressed and waited for him and Nurse A to come back in to do the vaginal ultrasound. Mr. BrainyBud and I were very anxious to see if there was anything even in there after the days events, but sure enough, there was!

Meet Baby BrainyBud. Tiny at 6 weeks, but still in the ute! It took Dr. K what seemed like FOREVER to tell us that he saw a flicker of a heartbeat... A FLICKER!

We saw the flicker of a heartbeat but it was very small but gave me a glimmer of hope. We won't know for sure until the bloodwork though...speaking of bloodwork (YIKES!) I went to the lab and they asked me to sit in the chair, and I shook my head like a 2 year old and say "No!" I told them my ordeal with needles and they took me to a room where I could lay down. The lab tech was great about not showing me the needle and I even got the pediatric needle I asked for! Mr. BrainyBud was my rock, he kept eye contact with me, rubbed my head even when I was crying and said I felt like I was going to throw up! (I didn't) And like that it was done. I could NOT have done it without him. He said I was very brave, but I think it was all him.I just hope the results come back good tomorrow and that in 2 weeks the baby is good and healthy.

We also found out that the new EDD is June 20,2010, Father's Day. What a great present, no? What makes this even more special is that it will be 28 years to the day that Mr. BrainyBud was born, and it was a Father's Day that year too!

LOTS OF FAITH, love and baby flutters,
Mrs. BrainyBud

Being Pregnant is SCARY

I have been a really bad blogger lately. We have had a really eventful past few days so here is the Cliff notes version. Thursday night I started having some bad cramping & a little bit of spotting. Because of the miscarriages in the past I completely lost it. I called my Dr's office & they told me I could either go to the ER that night or wait and call them back in the morning. Since Mr. Faith Bud was out of town working and it was just me and little Faith Bud I opted to wait until the next day. Well I called my Dr the next morning and they were not able to get me in so they suggested I go to the ER. I headed that way and spent about 6 hours in the ER. They did another HCG quantitative where they discovered my HCG levels were 56,000. At the high range for 6 weeks pregnant, which is where we are. They wanted to do an ultrasound to make sure baby was OK as well. They also established that I was extremely dehydrated so I was lucky enough to get an IV. The ultrasound showed baby measuring right on and I was able to see our little monkey. His heart was beating at 129 bpm, which is pretty good/normal for 6 weeks. They released me with a diagnosis of Threatened Miscarriage with instructions to make an appointment with my OB/GYN ASAP for follow up. They also put me on bed rest & pelvic rest until I was released by my OB/GYN. So it's been a really emotional weekend. A lot of ups and downs but I am feeling pretty optimistic right now. I haven't had any spotting since Friday which is a great thing. With our previous m/c's the bleeding only got worse. My m/s also returned this morning. I have been trying to take it easy and drink a lot of water. We are praying that tomorrow the baby is still thriving and growing! We are trusting God to keep our little monkey safe and healthy.

Just feeling Blah

So we are creeping up on week 7 of this pregnancy and I just can't shake the tiredness and the queasiness. If I could take a nap whenever I wanted to I would so be there.

So far other than being tired I have felt pretty good. I had to go back to the OB's office this week to have my TB test read and it was negative (yippee!!). Although the trip to the OB's office at that time of day was very interesting, just the difference of the people that are there in the afternoon compared to early in the morning when I usually go.

I am "out" to most of the family because if I hadn't started making the phone calls Monday after my 1st appointment my mother would have exploded. I am a little bit nervous about that but I am dealing and if something does go wrong we do have a nice big support group so I feel a bit better there.

I guess things with me are just status quo for now. :)

The waiting game is hard

So now that we aren't waiting to try to have a baby and we are pregnant I think the waiting game is getting twice as hard.

1st was the 2 week wait to go to the first OB appointment. I was so nervous and excited about that appointment all in one bundle. My 1st appointment yesterday was a nurse asking me tons of questions, giving me tons of info, a TB test and drinking some nasty liquid for my 1st glucose tolerance test(GTT). I am prediabetic so I get to do the GTT now and as long as I passed now I still get to do it when normal pregnant women do, Yippee more straight sugar liquid. After I got to wait an hour to have blood drawn they had to take 8 vials from me for all the blood work. The vampires were hungry is what my grandfather told me.

So now the next wait is getting to actually see the doctor and have a physical where they will hopefully be able to hear the heartbeat on Doppler. That appointment is basically 3 1/2 weeks from now.

Then the worst wait of all is unless there are any complications I won't get an ultrasound until 18-20 weeks. I really want to see our little bud but I want the pregnancy to be a trouble free as possible as well so I will just (im)patiently wait to see the baby.