December 2, 2010

Why can't I stop?

Seriously, I POAS a little while ago. I'm 6 weeks pregnant. I have no business POAS. But the week and a half between appointments to see the heartbeat has me in a total panic today.

The line isn't getting any darker. Granted, it's darker than the control line. A lot. But I thought maybe by now, the control line would have disappeared entirely.

I'm a total freak, I know. But I'm still having a hard time accepting this as real. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. I have horrible dreams every night about something bad happening and I tp check every time I go to the bathroom.

I really want to relax and enjoy this pregnancy but I'm having such a hard time doing so.


Rai said...

only a few more days, and then you will get to see a beautiful baby and a strong little heartbeat.
I don't think you're a freak at ALL for POAS-ing(?). If it helps set your mind at ease, that's what matters, right?
-Cherry Bud


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