Spotting Again (Updated with u/s pic)

Pretty much the same exact story as when it happened exactly two weeks ago, reddish brown spotting when I wipe. Thankfully, it seems to be winding down a bit...but its still freaking me out.

I've already spoken to the on-call doctor at my OBs office and the doc recommended taking it easy this evening (feet up, drink lots of water, no lifting or exercise) and give their office a call in the morning. Apparently they can see me if there is bleeding as its considered emergency care.

I'd really like to get in and get checked out tomorrow, no matter which hospital I have to go to. Preferably an ultrasound so they can find the source of the bleeding and (please, please, please) maybe see a little heartbeat.

Please keep Baby Cactus Bud in your thoughts tonight.

Update: I spoke with my doctor this morning and she said I needed to be checked to rule out an ectopic. Soooo, I got to spend the WHOLE day today in the ER. Awesome.

Results were mostly good news. Namely that Baby CB is where its supposed to be AND that its measuring correctly. I'm 6 weeks even going by my ovulation date (6w3d by LMP), and the little bugger was measuring 6 weeks.

There wasn't a heartbeat yet, but I'm trying to convince myself that is because its just a smidgen early. I know its roughly 50/50 odds to see it that early. I'm trying to take the measurements as a good sign and hope the future holds a heartbeat.

Here is a blurry first picture of Baby CB. The black blob is the amniotic sac and the white line in the blob is Baby CB.

(Yes, I'm a dork and took a pic of the screen because I knew they wouldn't give me a print out)

First Appointment

The Alpengeist. My favorite roller coaster at Busch Gardens, Williamsburg.

Photo credit: http://tinyurl.com/4dzx8ch

The time since this BFP has been a real roller coaster. A balancing act, if you will, between being happy and being worried. I'm happy to report that the spotting that was of concern last time I posted has thankfully not returned. My symptoms are still pretty much non-existent though, which I suppose I should be thankful, for but its got me worried. Since the spotting on the 7th I've only had minor nausea and have gone from a waterfall downstairs to a desert. My doctor says thats normal, as does the book she recommended What to Expect When You're Expecting (WTEWYE) by Heidi Murkoff. Dr. Google concurs.

I'm really excited to have made it to my first doctors appointment. I didn't get that far last time. It was kind of surreal being there though, particularly when they gave me paperwork to fill out and I was answering questions with myself listed as "Mother". Kind of reminded me of when we first got engaged and the vendors referred to me as "The Bride". I digress...

The first appointment went well. I was able to pass their pee test (Yahoo!). I got a chance to talk with my doctor. Mostly she just answered questions and asked things like when my last period was, what immunizations I've had, if I was taking prenatal vitamins...things like that. They took some blood samples before I left, from what I could translate from the lab order it looks like it was to make sure I am good and healthy.

The doctor did give me a bit of concerning news. Apparently with my insurance (Tricare), my doctor has to put in a referral to herself to continue my prenatal care. Tricare can refuse her referral and have me go to military clinics and hospitals instead. I'm crossing my fingers that doesn't happen.

Oh and the doctor said that if I get to stay with her office (we should know next week), that she wants me to have an ultrasound around 6 weeks. I'm sooo hoping that gets to happen. My previous loss was at 5w1d, so to see things are on track soon after that point would be amazing. Not to mention there would likely be a heartbeat then. We shall see though, this is all up in the air waiting on the verdict with insurance. I have no idea what the u/s schedule is at the military hospitals...will cross that bridge when I come to it.

If you all wouldn't mind keeping Baby Cactus Bud in your thoughts in the coming days I'd appreciate it. This weekend we'll (hopefully) be passing the gestation when the previous loss occurred. I can't begin to tell you what a huge step making it past that point will be.

Before I forget, I want to send out a big welcome to the two new buds, Determined Bud and Buttercup Bud. I'm looking forward to getting to know you both. Best of luck!

Worried

I had a minor amount of spotting last night and don't think I've felt symptoms since yesterday afternoon. Thankfully the spotting seems to have stopped, but this is still way too similar to my miscarriage experience for my liking. With the miscarriage, I had some pretty bad back cramps followed by spotting which gradually worsened over the next day...followed by the floodgates opening and all question of a viable pregnancy disappearing. After the back cramps, I never felt another symptom.

Thankfully I haven't had bad back cramps this time around and the spotting was so much less...but the fact that the symptoms are seemingly gone is freaking me out. I'm trying to remind myself that this early on (4W3D), its totally normal for symptoms to not be present. I'm also trying to remind myself that not all spotting leads to bad news. Early pregnancy, particularly after a loss, is such a huge mind game.

I'm waiting on a call back from my doctor. I have my first appointment with them tomorrow. I'm hoping they can clue me in as to what the cause of the spotting might be. Not sure what else they could do. I guess they could run betas, but I'm not sure I'm ready to hear the results if they aren't good.

Edited to add: I finally heard back from my doctors office. Only took them 5 hrs and a second call from me (eye roll). They say just to come in as scheduled tomorrow. Not surprising given its after 3pm here already. I'm looking forward to getting in there and getting on the road to perhaps getting some answers. I'm also looking forward to asking them to check on a possible infection (UTI or yeast...feels like somethings going on).

The results are in...

I am over the moon.

Here is the recap... last night after dinner I tell Mr. Bud that we might be knocked up. and I'm so proud of him when he asked me.. 'How are your temps?" to tell you the truth I never thought he was actually paying attention when I would tell him about the temps and all of that. So I showed him the graph how yesterday's temp went up and he smiled. Then tells me that he's not going to be able to sleep until we know for sure and of course I caved in and told him we have 1 digital left from our m/c. He looked at me with the face saying what the hell are you waiting for Go!!! and I tested :)

This is our second cycle trying after our m/c and I used OPK's to try to pinpoint my O date. After ovulation I had non stop cramping on my right side for a week and a half, and then on 8 DPO and then very light spotting on 9 DPO which I was hoping it was implantation spotting.

Tomorrow Im going to the Doctors to draw blood for my beta levels and then again on Monday. I am praying that they are doubling and we have a healthy sticky baby.

Implantation Spotting.. Hopefully

Today marks 9DPO and my body is playing games with me, I dunno if its a mental thing or what.

After ovulation I had strong cramps for 4-5 days and then on and off for the past couple of days. Yesterday I was starving alllllllll day and when I would eat I would not get full so that already had me in cloud 9 thinking that there was a possibility that I was KU. As soon as I got home I had to POAS, I know I know its kind of early but I could not resists. It was a very very faint line, but I really did not want to count on this almost not there line. A line is a line, but that was a very very faint, it actually looked like the line was already there before I tested.

I went to FertilityFriend.com and checked out their OPK gallery and look what I found:



Then this morning when I went to the restroom I had some very light brownish spotting and I just kept thinking great AF is going to show up early. AF has never shown up early, she is always here on the 27th day why would she show up early? Later in the morning when I used the restroom the spotting was gone.

Could this have been Implantation spotting? It does happen around 9 DPO.

I really hope this is our month, tomorrow I am going to test with FMU and I will let you know!