2WW madness!!

I HATE this part... The dreaded 2WW. With everything I have going, and with how busy I am, I still can't take my mind off of it. Especially when I enter my morning temp into FF and see a spike! I know it's too early at 7DPO, but I POAS for the heck of it. BFN, of course. I just hope that's not all I will see throughout the remainder of this cycle... Crossing my fingers for a BFP this month!!! :) :) :)



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The 2WW Continues

The 2 WW was supposed to be over on Wednesday with our blood test results came back with, as the Dr. put it, good and bad news. The good is I am pregnant the bad is that my HCG level is 10.5 and they want to see at least 30 for a viable pregnancy. My progesterone is great and my estridol is still a little low but overall he thinks is fine to keep a pregnancy. We get to wait now till Saturday to retake the blood test and see if the levels are doubling or dropping. Pretty much this will be a miracle if it works. I spent the rest of yesterday in bed sleeping and crying. To sum it up this is a crappy Christmas. Bah Humbug!!

2WW Blood Work & Random Thoughts

I think every time I call the Dr. with a question regarding my medication/treatment he has me come in for blood work. Not that I mind getting more information about my hormone levels so I will have peace of mind through this LOOOONNNNNGGG wait!! My question was about taking Estrace so late because in my previous two cycles I had started taking it before the transfer and this time I was going to start it 6 days after the transfer. So he had me come in to check my Estridol and Progesterone levels.
In I went to have my blood drawn,I got one of the good blood drawing nurses, and was told that they had just got two positive pregnancy tests that day from difficult IVF cycles. That helped me feel more confident that things will end up differently this time around. She was saying that she had read that laughter helped you to conceive, I have been doing a lot of that by keeping myself busy with friends and family. I actaully have a long list of things I do "just in case" they make this one stick:
- lay/sleep only on my back & slightly elevated upper body
- smell my husband to get lots of Pheromones
- laugh
- No heavy lifting
- Limited bending over
- Walk slowly
- No bouncing
- Keep distracted
Pretty much if someone gives me a "theory" I do it "just in case".

Back to my blood work. The nurse called back and said to that my Estridol levels were low at 34 and my Progesterone levels were great at 33.92. I was told I needed to start taking 4mg of Estrace instead of 2 mg and to start immediately. I am hoping that this has not affected the implantation or upcoming implantation of these embryos. I got varying information of the internet on what were normal levels and it doesn't seem that it is too far off for someone not on Estrogen supplementation. I am going with everything will be fine.

2 WW in Progress

I am three days into my 2 WW, and yes it is still as nerve racking as the other two IVF cycles. I have been trying to stay off the IVF chat groups and reading peoples worries because of course they become mine!! I did do a little research about 10 and 12 cell embryos and if that meant they were stronger than the normal 8 cell day 3 embryos. The 12 cell embryo is called a morula, the stage right before blastocyte, and the 10 cell embryo is an intermediate growing embryo. Both of these have higher implantation rates and are supposed to be, statistically, stronger embryos than the 8 cell. I will take that as this time is the lucky round of IVF!!

I have been laying around, flat on my back with my head raised higher than my feet so those embryos stay low in my uterus. I know they say once they are in there isn't much you can do except wait and pray that it will be successful. I am a bit paranoid that my one tube will suck those embryos right out of my uterus thinking they are foreign objects instead of expensive babies that I desperately want to stay put!! I have been minimizing the amount of time I am standing or sitting to make sure my uterus is calm and relaxed as well. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed that these little embryos are growing and thriving in my uterus!!

On the 17th day of temping, my BBT gave to me...

A 97.33! Holy moly! This marks 17 straight days of temps above the cover line. Apparently, 18 days CAN mean pregnancy. But, one thing I have learned about this process is, A LOT of things can mean that I am KU. Therefore, I am going to stay positive while not keeping my hopes up, if that's possible.




FF advises that I test on Wednesday, and that's probably what I'll do. Wednesday will be 19 DPO. FF also predicts that AF will arrive any day from today on... So we shall also see if she decides to show up or not.




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The frustration sets in...

16 DPO, no sign of AF and nothing but BFNs. When will I get a break?

I am standing at a crossroad, but I am at a stand-still. I wish SOMETHING would happen. I wish that I could either get the BFP I have been waiting for, or have AF show up already, so I can move on with this TTC process. Obviously, I would LOVE for it to be the option including a BFP... But I rather something happen than just sit here waiting. I am beyond 2 weeks, and getting anxious. In addition, I only have one CBED left, which I plan to save until mid week, if temps stay high, as they have. Take a look at my chart:



I haven't completely lost hope... After all, many women get late BFPs after multiple BFNs. I just hope that I am one of them :-/

According to FF, AF is due tomorrow... So the waiting game will continue.




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In it to "win" it

Today is CD 37, 15 DPO (as per FF), and so far, no sign of AF. My temps have remained high, too, so that is also a good sign, I guess.



Today's weird symptom? Well, while I was brushing my teeth, when I spit into the sink, there was a substantial amount of blood, which was strange. I used to bleed a bit when I brushed, but I switched to a new tooth paste (crest pro-health) and stopped having that problem. Today, all of a sudden, I was spitting out a lot of blood. I used the creat rinse I use, and it stopped, but it was a bit strange. I have read a bit about bleeding gums in early pregnancy, but I don't know if this can be attributed as a sign. Has anyone else had a similar "problem"? I was also SUPER sleepy last night, like by 8:30pm I wanted to go to sleep... But I made myself hold out until 11-ish. I also slept a lot last night and I feel like going back to sleep.

I am holding out on testing until AT LEAST tomorrow. FF says that AF is due to arrive Tuesday. Hopefully this is pretty accurate since I took time to input all my previous cycle data from Period Tracker.

In the meantime, staying positive :)




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14 DPO and still in the game...

With a BFN that is :-/ this is so frustrating. I am not even getting a faint line with FMU on a FRER :( and my temps have stayed pretty high. I only dropped .22 today. Take a look:




And one thing is for sure, my chart this time looks better than this old chart from about late September/early October 2010...




I need to become a triple threat... Recordimg BBT, OPK and CM. Or, I'll just go to the IF clinic and stop pushing something that I just can't do successfully on my own :-/ F you, IF!!!!! :(




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Up and down we go...

Where we stop? Nobody knows!!!!!

Take a look at this mornings temp...



97.24!!!!! Well, of course with a temp like that, I simply had to POAS, on this fine 13 DPO morning. And this was that result:



The pamphlet said that this is caused by not laying the test stick flat after testing (check), too little pee (check) or too much pee (definitely not the case). I just seemed to have a bit of a hard time aiming this morning, and I was holding the test, looking at it, so I didn't put it down... :-/ and now this means that I need to run out and buy ANOTHER test, because I know I will NOT be able to wait until Saturday to test again, and I only have 1 test left (the CBED kind).

So, I guess it is what it is. Hopefully I will have a better update later today... ::fingers crossed:: :)




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Still in the game... But how much longer? :-/

This morning, my BBT dropped a little more... And it's not making me too happy.

I haven't slept much the last two nights, so I don't know if I should blame the drop on the lack of sleep or on this cycles impending doom... Hopefully it's related to the latter :-/ I read that lack of sleep can make your BBT drop, and I did only sleep about 5hrs or less last night and the night before. Thankfully, tonight I'll be able to get some sleep.

I felt as if my breasts were a bit sore today, and they actually looked particularly huge this evening... I haven't had much cramping or anything else, so now it's just a waiting game.

I may test again tomorrow morning, using my 2nd to last CBED test. Let's hope it's good news :) I really hope that I get a BFP this weekend... Especially since lately there's baby talk, and women getting pregnant all around me. I just found out that a co-worker of mine is KU. Hopefully it'll be my turn soon. Mr. DBud is hopeful, so I guess I will be too :)




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(im)patiently waiting...

I should get a t-shirt that says, "leave me alone, I'm in my 2WW". Seriously :-/

I am currently 11DPO, on CD33, and going mad... I much rather be left alone to obsess over other charts, and obsess over my symptoms, and to just... I don't know... THINK!

Here is what my chart did today...



Still up there, but I don't even know if this means anything. I have been obsessing over the chart galleries on FF, and so far things look good... But I won't know for sure until a few more days when I am later in my 2WW, and even beyond it.

My cycle before the MC was 35 days, which means AF would be due in 2 days.. But since then it has been so whacko that I have no idea what to expect. I will definitely wait a couple or days (again) before POAS. I only have 2 CBED tests left, and don't want to "waste" them.

Now, to wait until tomorrow's temp :-/



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Stairway to Heaven?

Well, I am currently 10DPO, and my chart is doing this:



I don't know if this is a good sign or not, but I browsed the chart gallery on FF again, and compared mine to charts resulting in pregnancy belonging to women with similar issues to mine, and so far things look promising. My temps have stayed up, and have only continued to gradually rise. Not that this is the deciding factor on whether or not I'm KU or not... I guess we'll just have to wait and see!!!

As you can see, I haven't been able to resist the urge to POAS... No BFPs yet, but definitely hoping for a BFP soon!!! Thankfully I have a pretty crazy week ahead, so it should go by fast while being relatively distracting. This still won't keep me from obsessing over every temp and symptom... But it helps (at times).




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9DPO - the 2WW continues...

Well, I am more than half way through the dreaded 2WW. Temps have remained good, 9 days post ovulation... So I am definitely staying optimistic :) Take a looksie:



I went ahead and purchased a box of CBED and FR, but wasn't able to fight the urge to test, so I have already POAS three times, and seeing nothing but BFNs. I keep reminding myself that it's too early to test... So I have decided to wait until at least Wednesday before testing again. I still have one FR and I haven't even touched the digitals.

I don't want to get my hopes up... I really don't. But I can't help feeling that this really is IT. I hope I'm not wrong.




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The 2WW blues - 8DPO

I'm officially 8DPO, and starting to get really anxious! Temps are staying high, which is a good sign, but the wait continues. I have google searched DPO symptoms, and stalked FF charts from other women with similar issues to mine. Now I am overly-scrutinizing every single symptom, every twinge, every wipe... UGH!!!!!

Last night, I simply couldn't resist... I needed to pee on something! So, I visited a Family Dollar store and purchased 1 test. I wasn't surprised to see a BFN, but again, I just needed to POAS. That's what we are reduced to during the TTC process... Wanting to POAS all the time ;)

Last time, I started getting positives (which, as you may remember I doubted) as early as 9DPO, which is tomorrow. I definitely have big plans for my FMU tomorrow ;)

To be continued...



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Holy, Diarrhea, Batman!!! :-/

I know this may be TMI... But I woke up with some TERRIBLE diarrhea today. Like, whoa! My intestines felt like they were going to burst out of me, and my whole body is tingly. I feel fine otherwise, so I don't think I am getting sick or anything...

Of course, I automatically did a search on 6DPO diarrhea, and apparently it can, and has, happened (all of a sudden, out of the blue). I have been very regular with the metformin pills, so I don't believe they are causing it... If they would be, it would've been when I first started taking them.

Idk... All I know is that I got a neg OPK last night, and also had a good amount of creamy white CM on my panty. Sorry if all this is TMI, but this is a blog about getting KU, and everything that entails ;)

My temp has also stayed relatively high... There was a slight dip, though not very large, yesterday, but it went up again to where it was...



Meanwhile, the waiting game continues... And I know I won't be able to resist the urge to POAS real soon :-/



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Metformin, and the earliest one can POAS?

For starters... a quick question about Metformin... How many of you were taking Metformin before getting pregnant to combat PCOS, and in fact got pregnant AND continued taking it throughout your first trimester? Last time... I took it, and I got KU, but then miscarried/had a chemical pregnancy relatively early. I had stopped taking metformin, and my OB/GYN said I was right to stop taking it, but I have been reading a few studies that state how metformin can lower the chances of miscarriage in women suffering from PCOS... what do your Docs say??? I am curious to know :)

So, I was browsing some galleries on FF, and came across one with Positive Pregnancy Tests. I was fascinated at how some women start testing as early as 6DPO and sometimes even get a faint line! Of course, they continue testing on a daily basis (sometimes twice a day) to see if the line progressively gets darker. More women start to get a faint line starting 9DPO, and most can see positive results at 11DPO, and beyond. Obviously, this all depends on your own LP, but I can't help at wonder...

So the question remains... What is the earliest one should test? And which is the best test for detecting small traces of HCG? I know the lower the number, the easier it is for it to detect a tiny amount of the hormone... so what has been your "go-to" stick to pee on???

The last time I got my BFP, I am not sure how many DPO I was, since I wasn't temping... I was just going by my "regular" cycles at the time, which were 35 days (like clockwork). My Period Tracker App estimated that I Oed on day 22 of my cycle (read old post here), and we BDed on day 21, which was right around the time we were celebrating our Anniversary ;) Well, this time... I Oed on... CD22 - again! My first faint line appeared at 11DPO (and looking back, it wasn't THAT faint, especially after confirming some early results on FF), and my official digital reading appeared at 15DPO.

I don't think I can hold out until 11DPO this time :-/ I might want to start POAS at 6DPO, and I don't care if that means I have to buy more than one box of tests... Any thoughts?? The anxiety is KILLING me!!!! LOL LOL LOL!!!

I'd like to present... Ovulation!!!

It's pretty clear, if you ask me ;)

I went ahead and discarded the first temp that was taken with the old BBT, and now my chart reads like this.

The only bad part is, now, we are in the 2WW, which SUCKS! :-/ I guess I'll just keep temping in the meantime until I can test...

C'mon, little Turkey... Stick!!!




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1 more day...

Well, this is it... 1 day left until AF is due! I promised myself that I would not test early this cycle... I am planning to wait until AF is late (i.e. Thursday) before POAS.

At this point, it just continues to be a waiting game...







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Implantation bleeding 3dpo?!

I am a bit confused... Is it possible to have implantation bleeding 3dpo?! Tonight, we went out to dinner, and when I used the restroom and wiped, I had a tad of light blood on the paper... How is this possible? Has this happened to anyone else before? Very strange...




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Moving & The 2WW

Today is day 8 of my 2ww! I am so lucky that I have way too much going on right now to even think of the 2ww. The Mr. & I have been so busy getting things for our new home I have barely had time to breathe. Still need to get some essential appliances (fridge, washer, dryer) but things are coming along. I have been packing up our little apartment, who knew how much stuff we actually crammed into this little one bedroom apartment. We signed all the papers this morning. I feel like that was the last final big step. I can’t believe we are going to be homeowners in 3 days! We have our final walk through on Thursday, which I am going to use to measure some closets and figure out what paint colors I like best so I can do a home depot run. I am getting so excited.

As for the 2WW, I have had a lot more little twinges of pain in my tummy. I am hoping that is a good sign but trying not to get my hopes up too much. I feel like the big letdown is one of the hardest parts of these treatments. Well, I am off to pack some more. I am the packing queen right now! So excited for our big move this weekend but anxious because there is still so much to do!

All my love to everyone & hopeful thoughts to everyone TTC