Results

My first beta is 138! I can't believe it! My next beta is Monday. I did a HPT so that I could see two lines for the first time in my life. Yeah! I am pregnant!

Blood Test

I went to a local fertility clinic and had my first blood test today. I am waiting for the results and will probably hear back around 3 or 4 o' clock. The waiting is so hard! If I could just take a huge nap to sleep the day away, I would. I didn't take any hpt this time. For my IVF cycle, I started testing early, and it was so depressing to see a negative over and over, but to still have a glimmer of hope. This time, I decided that if I have to see a negative, I only want to see it once.
I am excited for my result, but not really hopeful at this point. I have basically already excepted that it is going to be negative and am trying to decide what to do next.
I will post tonight when I know for sure!

Appointment Made!!

I have finally gotten around to making a new appointment with the new fertility Dr. I get to fill out a bunch of paperwork but I know it makes it easier for the Dr. to get a feel of where we have been and what we have already been diagnosed with. I think I am ready to get back on the roller coaster of treatments. It has been 8 months since the last IVF in February and if we don't start right away and this next round isn't successful then I will be 32 before having a baby!!! I know, not ancient, but when we are talking about prime fertile years time is tickin' away!!

I also may have some good news but am going to wait till next week to blog about it when I know more information!! Stay tuned...

When?!?

Well guess what. There's another pregnant lady wandering around. And no, it ain't me. Remember the friend who had the ectopic? She is the new lucky recipient of a BFP. And you know what? I'm about tired of being happy for everyone else around me...I want some of that happiness for myself. I'm sure you ladies will forgive me for sounding like a petulant child. =o/

In addition to that, I/we think the BF's water broke this evening at work. She's at the MAU now getting checked. She says she'll call me when she needs me; I'm anxious to be there for her but I don't want to step on anyone's toes. We'll see. I'm more excited for her now than I am sorry for myself. Hopefully this sentiment will last me far past the birth. Self pity is quite exhausting.

Right now I'm on day CD11, and have been keeping an eye on my cervical fluid. I'm not sure if Mr. Curly Bud will be willing to have a go at it this month or not. We go on vacation for our anniversary in about 1.5weeks so I'm kind of leaning on waiting until we get back to start trying again. We'll see.

The worst feeling...

Well, here I am... 15 days away from what would've been my EDD. I feel like crap. I think I am doing a pretty good job at keeping it together, what with all the Baby Shower pics being posted on FB, and the fact that Similac decided to send me a sample box in the mail today (AHHH!!!!!). These constant reminders really SUCK. And there is nothing I can do about any of it. What also sucks is the fact that AF is still MIA. F.M.L.!!!!!

I am really trying to stay positive and remember that things will get better. I visited the Doctor on Monday in preparation for a diet program I will be starting at the end of this week. He is a former gynocologist who has started a special diet program. I told him about my situation with PCOS and my MC. He told me that the two best ways to get my PCOS under control are to take my metformin and lose weight, and they both go hand in hand. He advised that I start taking one, 500mg, pill a day to start, and work my way up to the 2 500mg a day. He also said that the good news is I know I can get pregnant, and he believes it will happen again. He said he would run all my blood tests and look for even the smallest issue with my thyroid, etc. to make sure that is not a contributing factor. Honestly, it seems VERY promising, and I am hopeful. Once I get started on this, and get a grip on it, I think I'll officially make my appointment at the IVF clinic to run tests there, and start seeing what else I can do to help my situation.

Thankfully, this (and work) is keeping me so busy that I don't have much time to think about my Pity Party... but I know I will not be able to forget. It's going to be difficult, but I just have to get through this and keep my eye on a positive future.

Keepin the Faith

Five more days until my first beta. I am trying to remain hopeful, but it is hard. It is difficult to not want to emotionally prepare myself for the disappointment. I am already making mental plans of what the next step could be, but Mr. Lucky Bud is encouraging me to wait 5 more days before thinking about all of that.

Things are going much better with the progesterone shots. We finally have it figured out. We have to do the injection very slowly, over 3 minutes, and then I need to massage the injection site for about 3 minutes, and then, no pain all day! It  is so much better! 

Full Term!

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We made it to full term! 37 weeks!

Totally unbelievable to me that baby is now supposedly the size of a watermelon.

No progress on his escape to report on as of yet, just some pressure downstairs periodically. As of today though, he's allowed to start the ball rolling in that direction.

Same Ole' Same Ole'

There really hasn't been much of a change in my TTC journey as I have yet to make an appointment. I still need to get around to it but I am finally feeling like I am out of the fog of being. I am not sure I am ready to reopen those emotions if our next round of IVF doesn't work.

I did compete in the triathlon with my friend over the weekend and we completed the sprint triathlon in 2 hours 5 minutes, which isn't bad for not training very hard. It was great to get out and do a competition again since I have been putting off doing anything while doing IVF. It felt good to get out there and not focus on infertility.

I think I will keep doing short runs and triathlons instead of putting them off just in case I get pregnant.

36 Week Update

How far along: 36 weeks and 6 days. Full term is tomorrow!

Total weight change: Going by the doctors scale at my 36 week appointment on Wednesday, +27. I actually went down a pound from the week before. No worries, it balances out the +2 from the previous week.

Maternity clothes: Always. I've pretty much moved into dresses at this point. It kills my hips to get pants on and off. I'm starting to look forward to wearing regular clothes again, eventually. Feeling like my wardrobe is really limited these days.

Stretch Marks: No new developments since last week.

Movement: I think he's getting pretty squished in there. Movements have changed yet again to subtle butt wiggles and occasional limb stretches. My kidneys appreciate this change, but it does mean I have to lay really still sometimes to get kick counts done.

Sleep: I just can't seem to get enough sleep lately. Sleep at night is broken up by bathroom trips and braxton hicks contractions. During the day if I need a nap, and my schedule allows, I'm all about taking one.

Best Moment This Past Week: At the end of my appointment this week the nurse went ahead and made all of my weekly appointments up to my due date (they usually go appt to appt). There are only THREE more appointments. The look on my face when she started saying "October" for the appointments beyond next weeks? Priceless.

Most Difficult Moment This Past Week: My worries about something going wrong in these last weeks of the pregnancy are getting pretty bad. Its reminding me a lot of my worries in the first few weeks of the pregnancy...just instead of praying for him to not miscarry, I'm praying that I won't get this far just to have him taken away. I have more anxiety about making it to delivery day than about the actual delivery.

Belly Button In or Out: Still an inny.

Cravings/Aversions: Nothing major.

Symptoms: No major changes in the last couple weeks. Braxton Hicks pretty regularly and sporadic (last night being one of those times) instances with lots of pressure downstairs. My carpal tunnel has gotten a lot better, probably thanks to the braces and the change in temperature. Mostly I just feel like I'm enormous and its hard to get around.

4 Days Post FET

Well today marks my 4th day post frozen embryo transfer. I found this breakdown of what is happening each day post 3 day FET. 
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
2dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
3dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
4dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
5dpt.. Implantation begins as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
6dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
7dpt.. Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells &
fetal cells
8dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
9dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
10dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
11dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on
HPT
I have found this on several blogs. Here is the link to one. I am not sure of the original source.


So far, not much to report. I am still in tons of pain from the PIO injections. My muscles get so extremely sore that it is painful to do anything. We have tried a few suggestions, like icing before and heat after the injection, and doing it slower (over 3 min period instead of 30 seconds). Nothing is helping. I had no soreness at all for my IVF cycle. Maybe it was a different kind of oil???

I have been feeling nauseous today, but it seems too early for pregnancy symptoms, so I don't know why I don't feel well.

I have exactly one week until my beta test!