August 21, 2009

Getting Pregnant isn't a Bed of Roses

Hi everyone. I'm Rose Bud. I'm 28 (will turn 29 on Sunday!) and have been married to Mr. Rose Bud for 3 years. We met 5 years ago and I must say it wasn't love at first sight. I had just gotten out of a bad relationship and he was planning to move to go to grad school. Well....that all changed after going out a few times. After dating for 1 year and 1/2 he proposed. A year later we were married on July 15, 2006. We knew we wanted to have children but we also wanted "us" time for a while. It's now three years later...a house and two dogs....and we want to add to our family. I went off the pill in January 2009. My cycles were very irregular after that. My doctor recommended two regular cycles before ttc so we waited. I always hated AF but never wanted her presence more during those months of waiting for her to show up. She finally did. We had been charting during that time as well. Thanks to the girls on the nest I read a very good book (TCOYF) and starting temping/charting. We officially started trying the beginning of May and at the end of May I found out I was pregant. It was the best feeling in the world. I saw a new doctor (my regular doctor doesn't deliver babies anymore; just does gyno) and confirmed the pregnancy with a urine test. I scheduled an ultrasound for three weeks later, at which time I would be 8 1/2 weeks. I told friends, coworkers, and family. I was soooo excited.
That Sunday I started bleeding. I called the doctor and he said if I don't start cramping to just come in the office Monday so they can test my hcg levels. Sunday night I passed a clot. I was already preparing for the worst but still didn't want to hear the word. I couldn't even say it. Monday was the worst. I went into the office and there was a mother with her newborn. I almost lost it. I was an emotional rollercoaster. My levels were drawn. I had to wait 2 days to have them drawn again to see if they doubled or worse- if they fell. Two loooong days passed and I had them drawn again. It was confirmed- I was having or did have a miscarriage. I didn't have to have a D&C or have a followup appointment. I had prepared for a miscarriage but it was so hard hearing it. Going back to work and having to face everyone was hard. I cried at the drop of a hat. But each day got a little better and I got through the week. So long story short I have had one cycle since the miscarriage and I am just waiting for AF to come back a 2nd time so we can start trying again. I'm on cycle day 43 with no ovulation. Boy I never thought getting pregnant and having a baby would be so hard. It's definitely no bed of roses.

*Mr. Rose Bud and I in Savannah*


Worry Bud said...

Your story is so moving and you are incredibly strong! I hope you get your BFP very very soon!

Chef Bud said...

Happy Birthday RB! I hope you had a great day and that your long cycle ends soon so you can TTC again.


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