Yesterday I was an emotional wreck and spent most of the day crying, being crabby or just in general having a big pity party while attempting to clean our disaster of a house. I even baked some mini cakes that look like trains and presents that I am going to fill with cream and then eat them, YUM!! Mr. Explorer Bud stayed in the garage pulling an engine where he was safe, for the most part, from my craziness!!
I am glad that we know for sure and there is not a cliff hanger for a week. I am glad I don't have to take shots anymore or all the pills, not that I would've minded if I were pregnant but it is nice to be done. I took the patches off and didn't take anything today so it feels final. I will probably still have spouts of sadness and anger but I am mostly just feeling resigned that we will not be having kids in the next year or two. I think we will just wait to do another IVF cycle after Mr. Explorer Bud is out of school. Maybe that is what we are supposed to be waiting for in the first place so why keep trying. Of course there won't be any prevention going on in the bedroom but like the Dr. said it is less than a 1% chance of occurring naturally and that was before I lost my left fallopian tube!!
Hopefully AF will arrive sooner than later so we can move on with it all!!
4 comments:
I am so sorry!
I am so incredibly sorry. I wish I had magic words to make the pain go away. :( I hope that you do get that 1% miracle surprise when you least expect it. We did. It can happen. *hugs*
Oh EB I am so sorry. I am sending big hugs your way. Keep your head up.
Many hugs for you and I am so sorry to hear this. Hopefully you are the 1% chance and will end up PG when you least expect it.
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