October 2, 2010

This is Not the Life I Planned For

My third anniversary is just around the corner, and I am so excited to celebrate another year of marriage. I love my husband dearly, and though we have had ups and downs over the last 3 years, I couldn't be happier that this is the man I am spending my life with. When we were married 3 years ago though, I never guessed that this was where our lives would be now.

3 years ago, I was 1/2 way through grad school. We had just purchased our home. My hubby was applying for grad school. We had grand plans of fixing up our home, getting going in our careers, and starting our family. We were certain that by the time we were 30, we would have decent jobs (in our fields of study), at least one child, and a renovated home. While things have definitely not turned out as planned, I can't say that we haven't benefitted from our stuggles. We know that all we can count on is each other. We know that at the end of the day our marriage is more important than money or belongings.

At the same time, I still find myself asking "why me?" Why are some people finding GREAT jobs, yet despite investing in our education, we cannot find employment? Why are friends or ours able to purchase nice homes and fill them with nice things, while we have a laundry list of projects that need to be completed and items that need to be bought? Why are what seems like ALL of our friends able to start their families while we need to sit by and watch and wonder when it will be our time?

My husband is the eternal optimist and is my encourager when I am down. He reminds me of the fact that we have a roof over our heads, we are still paying our bills, we are in love with each other, and we truly do have all that we need.

I hope that the saying "Good things come to those who wait", holds true for us.


Sunflower Bud said...

I'm praying for you every day. I recently was downsized from my position last week and I'm facing the same questions you have as well about the fairness of life...

Here's hoping we both find something soon.

Fitness Bud said...

Thank you. That means SO so much to me. I am so sorry to hear that you are going through similar things....I wouldn't wish this on anyone. :( Please know that you will be in my prayers too.

Jen J. said...

Happy Anniversary! Your husband sounds like man - ever the optimist. GL to you guys...I hope things turn around soon for you. :)


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