July 26, 2010

No Regrets

IVF #1 is officially a BFN. I already had my freak out, hyperventilating, can't speak, heartbreaking moment last week when I started spotting heavily at 5dp3dt. It was so familiar and so much like every other negative cycle that I really felt we weren't successful. I did switch my progesterone support from injections to endometrin and that stopped the spotting, but I had a negative HPT on Saturday and AF arrived today.

At this point I'm surprisingly calm and collected. I've had some sad moments this weekend as Mr. CB and I discussed our next steps. I would like to get right back in the game and cycle as soon as possible, but our finances don't support that move. We made a decision yesterday to work towards paying off all of our credit card debt by the end of the year, and plan to cycle again in January. In the meantime, I'm going to get a second opinion from another RE and talk to them about some other tests such as a hysteroscopy or laparoscopy to see if we can't get a better idea why we're not getting pregnant. When we do cycle again we will go with a clinic that offers the Attain IVF Refund Program. Even though it's more money initially, after having one failed IVF completely OOP we need to know that we will have the option for multiple cycles if we need them.

We have no regrets about our decision to go to Costa Rica and Panama for IVF #1. It would have been sweeter if we had brought back a little souvenir, but for us it was a good decision. I am planning on posting a full overview soon that details the entire experience and what went well and the difficulties we experienced. I will say that if you have a chance to visit Costa Rica, GO! It was the most amazing place I've ever visited.


This little guy says come visit him in Costa Rica!


Mr. CB and I thank you from the bottom of our hearts for your thoughts and prayers throughout our travels and procedures. It means the world to us! We may have lost this battle, but we are still fighting and I know that we will have a baby Chef Bud one day soon.

12 comments:

Silver Rose said...

Oh, I'm so sorry the news wasn't good. I hear ya about the credit card debt...you can do it!

Sunflower Bud said...

I am so very sorry that it didn't work. My heart goes out to you and I am immensely impressed by your strength. I hope your January cycle brings great news!

Ms. Understood said...

:( I'm so sorry that it didn't work out.

Mrs. Hoppy said...

I'm so sorry about the BFN sweetie, I was really pulling for you. I'm looking forward to your review of your trip, my DH and I are tossing around the idea of someday doing the same thing and I'd love to hear your opinion. Big ((hugs)) to you, I hope the time until January flies by!

Sarcastic Bud said...

I'm so sorry, CB. Keep up with the positive thoughts.

2 Dog House said...

Oh, I am so sorry this didn't work for you guys. I have been thinking of you guys often and checking back regularly to see if there was an update. Big hugs to you guys.

Life Happens said...

I'm sorry about your BFN. Stay positive and I wish you the best of luck with the shared risk program.

Jen J. said...

I'm so so sorry CB. I was so hoping this would be it for you guys. Please email me if you want/need to talk. ((HUGS)) & GL with your testing & best wishes to you.

Flora Bud said...

I am so so so sorry CB :( My heart goes out to your and your husband. I know its easier said than done, but stay positive and keep your head up. Hugs

Blueberry Bud said...

I am so sorry, CB :( I am thinking of you and your DH. I am glad that you were still able to enjoy Costa Rica and hope you have brighter days ahead in the very near future.

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Courtney said...

So sorry to hear this, Chef Bud. I hope the time passes quickly and that January brings you your long-awaited BFP!

 

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