But now that it's really here, I'm feeling so conflicted. I know that the end of this cycle brings with it BCPs, and therefore, the end of us trying on our own to get pg.
How did I get here? I never thought I'd be here.
Is it normal to feel so conflicted at this point? Don't get me wrong. we're not wavering even a little bit in our IVF decision. Just a little tiny part of me feels like we're giving up.
It's sad. I expected the next step to be only exciting, and maybe a little scary... i didn't expect to be sad too.
3 comments:
I haven't been in your situation so I don't have alot of advice but I am sure this is normal to feel this way. And you AREN'T giving up! Sometimes our bodies need a little help from others to make things work. I have faith! Stay strong! Your BFP will come just sometimes it needs some intervention. I'm praying for you guys! ((Hugs))
I think being sad is a totally normal emotion at the point you are at...you can be hopeful about what's coming up but it is still sad that it didn't happen the way you thought it would. Good luck in the next few months.
Might be a topic for another post, but why do you have to go back on BCP? What does that do to help prepare for IVF? I've been wondering that...
Bcps supposedly serve 2 purposes: 1) the supposedly settle down your ovaries to rest them before starting the cycle. 2) and probably the bigger reason, is to get everyone cycling together who is going to have their cycle that month. I'm pretty sure the convenience factor for the RE is the biggest reason. They only do retrievals and transfers one week a month... They need to get everyone on the same cycle to do it that way.
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