February 14, 2011

It's over :(

Well, we just got home from the Hospital, and the news is not good... We officially miscarried. Happy Valentine's Day to us. :-/

After experiencing the spotting yesterday, I kept a close watch on my vaginal discharge. At around 5:20pm today, I noticed some heavier, brighter red, bleeding, accompanied by some brown clots. Of course, I freaked out and called my Doctor... She advised me to go to the ER. I got home and was accompanied by Mr. DBud to the hospital.

The end result? My cervix was closed shut, but it was full of older blood. They ran, not one but two betas and both came up negative. Conclusion? Brief miscarriage.

I spoke to my Doc on the phone again after leaving, and agreed to see her tomorrow afternoon for a check up, so she can take a look for herself and we can discuss everything.

I am absolutely heartbroken... I have cried and cried. I just want to bury my head in the backyard and stay there... But thanks to Mr. DBud, I don't need to. He stood by me the entire time, and was truly my rock. I don't know what I would do without him. I guess Valentine's Day for me this year was about truly seeing what I have next to me in a whole new light... And boy, am I lucky.

I will be posting another update tomorrow after meeting with the Doc... Until next time! Keeping my chin up :)

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Determined Bud said...

I am so sorry! I know there is nothing I can say to take the pain away but please know we are all here for you! My heart breaks for you and Mr. Diva Bud. All my love!

Girl Friday said...

I am so very sorry to hear this. I've followed you, and was cheering with you when you got this bfp. I pray that you heal both emotionally and physically quickly.

Cactus Bud said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. If you need an ear, please let me know. Your story sounds pretty familiar to me, and my heart is truly going out to you.

I'm glad you and Mr. DB are there for one another. It truly is a silver lining to find your relationship stronger than before.

(((HUGE hugs)))

Please keep us updated on how you're doing. You & Mr DB will be in my thoughts.

Lauren said...

I'm so sorry Diva Bud. I was really hoping your spotting didn't mean anything. I'll be keeping you and Mr.DivaBud in my T&P.

Explorer Bud said...

I am so sorry that this happened! I know there isn't really anything that we can say to help ease your pain. A good cry always helps and of course a wonderful support system!

Mrs. Lydon said...

I am so sorry Diva Bud. These things are so unfair. It doesnt make any sense why this happens to good people. I will be praying for you during this time. I have been there and if you ever want to talk let me know.

Magnolia Bud said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. :( If you ever want to talk, I'm here to listen. Definitely keep us posted on you're doing. You'll be in my thoughts & prayers as you start to heal. (((hugs)))

Diva Bud said...

Thank you so much for all the T&P!!! I am very lucky in many ways, and am really hoping that next time we can bring home a beautiful baby... But for now, it hurts a lot.

We ended up telling my Mom, and she almost cried too... I felt bad but I had to tell her. She is being very supportive, which shows me it wad a good decision to tell her.

I am going on with life as planned, and hoping that when it's my time God will bless us with the gift of a child.

Thanks again to everyone!!!!!

Cherry Bud said...

Oh, DB, I'm so sorry. This is so unfair and my heart is just breaking for you. You are in my prayers!

Buttercup Bud said...

I am so sorry Diva Bud! T&P's and hugs your way.

PB&J Bud said...

I am so sorry to read this. My heart is breaking for you :( I wish there were words I can say that would make this all better.



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