November 15, 2010

Today...

Today I am frustrated because my OPK's, while slowly darkening, are stubbornly refusing to show a positive.

Today I am jealous because a high school friend got to see her LO's heartbeat

Today I am remembering the sweet baby I held yesterday, her chubby, jelly filled cheeks, and how much I wished I had been holding my own.

Today I am refusing to allow the fear of never being a mother overwhelm me

Today I am ecstatic because of Sunflower Bud's BFP. Congratulations again and again, my dear!

Today I am heartbroken because of all the lost LO's here on Bloomin' Babies. Magnolia Bud, Golden Bud, Sarcastic Bud, and Blueberry Bud...ladies, I don't even know what to say, but each of your updates absolutely broke my heart for each of you. I wish there was some magic I could work to give each of you your take-home baby. Life is indescribably unfair and you are all in my prayers.

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2 comments:

Sunflower Bud said... 1

Thank you!! I can't wait to see you post yours.

I gave up on regular OPK's a long time ago. Switched to digitals and my stress levels plummeted. No longer trying to figure out if it was positive was huge.

Sarcastic Bud said... 2

Thank you for your prayers, my love. It really does mean a lot. You are such a sweet, sweet gal.

I hope you get your BFP very soon! You're in my thoughts.

 

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