March 28, 2010

Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise

The IVF 2ww is unlike any other.

Not only are you dealing with the regular 2ww type things, but you're actually injecting your body and taking pills with EXTRA hormones to further convince your body what you already know:
You're pregnant until proven otherwise. It makes things harder than I can explain.

And, 8dp3dt (= 11DPO) I think I'm hitting the wall.

The past couple of days have been REALLY hard. I keep searching for something to definitively tell me that I'm pregnant or not (short of POAS, because that's not an option). I've cried only a little bit. I tried to get squeezed in at my IF therapist, but she can't fit me in before beta.

I've been positive this whole time. I hardly even thought of the "what if". Now it's all I'm thinking about.

All I can think of is what happened last time. We got the phone call, and my husband came home from work, because he could hear it in my voice on the phone, and he didn't want me to be in the house by myself. And I just cried for HOURS.

That's all I can think about now... is how I was after that phone call.

So, someone give me something to grab onto until beta - because I HATE feeling how I feel right now. I want to go back to 2 days ago, when I was Joe Positive.

I don't like being this scared little girl, hoping that I'm pregnant.


Those 2 nearly perfect embryos... if this doesn't work.... I just can't imagine.

4 comments:

Sooz said...

Stay strong and hang in there! I'm right there with you at 13dp2dt and I know how hard it is to stay positive, but remember...PUPO!

Ms. Understood said...

:::HUGS::: Crossing my fingers for you. I hope the next few days go by quickly.

Annie said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

Worry Bud said...

GL DB...continuing to send T&P your way. :)

 

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