Today I went in for an u/s to confirm a heartbeat (7w3d) and I was diagnosed with a missed miscarriage. There was no heartbeat. The only ominous sign was a small amount of brown-streaked CM last Tuesday. I guess that was it. I still feel pregnant and my cervix is still closed. I haven't had any cramping yet. I am going in tomorrow for Cytotec. I have a d&c scheduled for next Wednesday just in case the Cytotec doesn't work completely. I knew finally getting pregnant was just too good to be true.
I was thinking today that it is so cruel that all four of us buds who would have had June babies lost them one after another (Magnolia Bud, Golden Bud, Sarcastic Bud, and now myself). Sometimes life just sucks. I pray all of us Buds still waiting will get our sticky, healthy, take-home babies -- G-d knows we want them badly enough and deserve to be moms (or second-time moms).
DAMN IT! This is just not fair. Not fair at all. For any of you :( I hate that we're all a part of this terrible "club". I am so sorry hun. I wish you all the best in your healing. Take some time with you and hubby to spend together.
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--makeup bud
I'm so sorry sweetie. Please let me know if you need anything, or if you need to talk. I'm here for you.
ReplyDeleteAnd you're right....life is completely unfair!
I am so so sorry. I wish I had the right words to make it all better. It's a hard road and I wish no one had to travel it.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry. This is so far beyond unfair.
ReplyDeleteHow heartbreaking--I'm so sorry. There has been a real shortage of sticky baby dust around here and I can confidently say that 2011 has got to be a better year for all of us. I hope the Cytotec treatment is successful and that you're able to try again soon.
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