You might think I'm nuts!

In my last post, I described the symptoms I'm having during my 2WW. As of the other day, I hadn't experienced the very first pregnancy symptom I had in my last cycle, so I didn't mention it in my last post, and the symptom is so kooky that I was kind of afraid to mention it. Until it happened today.

Let me explain.

I am not a gifted singer by any means, but that doesn't stop me from singing to the Glee soundtrack whenever I commute. And by some miracle I can hit the Lea Michele high notes. It's nothing I'd ever do in front of a human being, but in a car by myself I admit that I sing all the way to work and all the way home.

Want to know the first sign I had that I was pregnant for my first donor cycle?

I couldn't hit the high notes.

It was the strangest thing. It's like my voice just gave out in the higher range (or whatever the right term is--forgive me Diva Bud!) That literally was the first sign that something was different from all my other IVFs. I can't remember how many days after the 3DT it was but it was sometime between 1 and 8 days post 3dt.

Now before you go blaming the supplemental estrogen and PIO I was taking, let me explain further:

Even after my loss, when my HCG was positive for a couple months, I still couldn't sing. I wasn't on PIO, and I wasn't on estrogen. After my second D&C I noticed that my high voice returned.

So of course with this cycle I was waiting for the voice change and have been singing my heart out during my commute. My voice was actually quite effortless and I was hitting higher notes than usual (I'm sure I sounded like a cat in heat, but you get my drift). Even as of this morning I was on fire.

And then around 7:30 this evening I drove to a restaurant to get take-out. I wasn't even thinking about my voice, but I went to hit a high note and couldn't. I rushed home to look at the HPT that I'd peed on around 6:30pm. I'd thrown it in the trash because it looked negative, but upon very very very close inspection, I think I might see a line. We're talking massive magnification (strong glasses + strong contacts + bright lights). Yeah it could be an evap line, but none of the other 2 in the trash (from this morning and last night) show the same line.

I may be hallucinating AND delusional. I'm still prepared for the worst, but I'm feeling hopeful tonight.

Will let you know tomorrow.

Golden Bud