Made Some Serious Decisions...

The last time I posted, we were still waiting for Mr. JB's SA results. Those results came yesterday, and they were not good. I think in the back of our minds, we knew this might happen. Mr. JB underwent Chemotherapy and Radiation as a child, and that can greatly affect fertility, especially when it is done during those developmental years. We had a long conversation last night about all of our options, and we have decided as a couple, that IUI or IVF is not an option right now. We would like to let nature take its course, as the money spent on the IVF or IUI does not give us any guarantees. We have decided at this point to head in the direction of adoption again...I got into contact with our re-licensing counselor from when we were Foster Parents, and we would like to look into becoming re-licensed as an Adoptive Home, and see if there is a baby out their that needs us...just like lil JB needed us. It has been a very trying and emotionally draining 24 hours. I am handling this well, and I think Mr. JB is too, but I feel bitter. I think it is a normal response to everything, but I have dealt with many ignorant people who don't understand adoption and why people choose to adopt children; especially those from the foster care system. I feel like our decision is right for our family, but I know I will be faced with naive ways of thinking, and I am tired of hearing people's comments. A baby is a baby, whether it is from your belly or from your heart. I just wish others at times saw it that way. People can say things they have no intentions of saying...and it come across as truly asinine. I know that our decision is good for us, and maybe someday we WILL try IUI...or even conceive a miracle baby. I just wish I could push other people's opinions out of my mind, because THAT is what makes me cry the tears I cry.