July 29, 2010

Can I just turn my REM cycle off please?

I woke up crying from yet another crazy dream. This one was so realistic, I would have sworn it was real if I hadn't actually woken up. I dreamed that I POAS and a big huge YES+ popped up immediately. Ran and got another stick and *BAM* a :) showed up (though I don't know a digital pregnancy test with a smiley face LOL). One more and the words PREGNANT showed up clear as day. I was bouncing all over the place like crazy and called my best friend who came over and jumped up and down with me.

And then the cat jumped on the dresser and knocked something off and woke me up. And I promptly burst into tears.

I hate this. I wish there was a switch to just turn your dreams off. Ones that like really freaking hurt.

I started cramping last night and it's continued this morning so I'm pretty sure AF is on her way soon. Probably just in time to ruin my u/s appointment tomorrow morning to check on my uterine lining since my body is a big huge *BEEP*.

2 comments:

  1. {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

    I know its hard, but do not give up hope. Please know that I am thinking and praying for you.

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  2. I'm so sorry SB...sending T&P your way.

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