I never got it.
You're happy for your friend - it's not their fault you're not pregnant... you go and have a nice time. Until today. In 90 minutes I'm going to be leaving for the baby shower of the wife of one of my oldest friends.
And I'm petrified.
I can feel the sadness already. It's seeping into my heart - it's aching.
I'm nervous for the questions, as the last to get married. All of the "when will you have children" questions... and not knowing how to answer. It's a normal question. Almost expected. And completely heartbreaking. Because I don't know.
I want to go see my friends. I want to celebrate with them.
How do I hide that I'm breaking on the inside?

Oh Dandelion, I cant imagine what you are going through. At this moment you should go have the best time that you can and be there for your friend. Your day will come, I have faith that you are going to get a BFP soon!!!
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