Not Getting Excited in the 2WW - Lesson #127

I don't know why I did it to myself again this month. I told myself I was going to stay cool and stay calm, always keeping in mind that it's been 6 long cycles with no BFP and that I shouldn't read into anything that much. That I should plan and prepare for the worst (a BFN) so that I wouldn't get too upset.

But did I listen to myself? Of course not! I made it through the morning of 7 DPO without my usual heavy spotting. I got giddy Monday morning thinking that the clomid actually did something and maybe this was our month. But then I went to the bathroom around 2 PM, and hello...there it was. Bleeding that is heavy enough for a tampon, that would make me think AF is starting if I didn't chart and know that my temp was still up, that makes me certain that this is NOT the month. It is so hard to deal with this again.

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So, cycle 8 here we come. I had already scheduled an appointment with my RE for this Friday (hoping I would be able to cancel with a BFP) so at least I can go in and talk with her about what we tried this month and what we will change for next month.